Hi everyone!
I was diagnosed with type 1 or maybe LADA a week or so before Christmas (although not absolutely confirmed yet, still waiting c-peptide/antibody test results and was initially told type 2 - my age (26) made them reconsider and refer me to the hospital where they decided type 1/LADA).
I'm now at a stage where I really need to be getting back to 'normal'. Some days I think I am getting there and things seem to be going well. The nurse even told me I was doing well and she was impressed I managed to get things under control so quickly.
And then there's times like today, where I skipped breakfast because it was later than I wanted and I didn't want to be high at lunch. I spent all afternoon trying to decide what I wanted for dinner (was craving lasagne, but was scared because carbs and fat). I finally decided I was going to try and see what happened, but the shops didn't have any in stock. Spent waaaay too long trying to work out what I should have instead, finally decided on the same chicken salad wrap I've been having all week, even though I didn't want it. By this point it was later than I wanted to have my dinner, since I like to keep an eye on my sugars after I eat and can't do that if I'm asleep. So then literally spent the next hour crying about my f****** chicken wrap, that I didn't even want, trying to decide if I should just skip dinner too and keep my sugars good - obviously, all the time it was just getting later and later. I did eventually decide I should probably eat, but I'm regretting it now since I only just started going up and I'm knackered and want to go to bed.
I know it probably seems ridiculous to get so worked up about something so small/inconsequential, but this seems to be happening a lot lately. Is this just something that will get easier with time? How do I stop worrying about everything and every meal and constantly checking blood sugars and trying to work out what's acceptable levels/what's too high, even whether this is normal for a type 1 or more like type 2. As far as everyone else is concerned, diabetes is a very manageable condition these days and I should be able to lead a normal life and even eat 'normally', but it doesn't seem like that to me at the moment. I just want to be able to get on with my life.
Sorry for the rant - I'll be impressed if anyone actually makes it this far!
I was diagnosed with type 1 or maybe LADA a week or so before Christmas (although not absolutely confirmed yet, still waiting c-peptide/antibody test results and was initially told type 2 - my age (26) made them reconsider and refer me to the hospital where they decided type 1/LADA).
I'm now at a stage where I really need to be getting back to 'normal'. Some days I think I am getting there and things seem to be going well. The nurse even told me I was doing well and she was impressed I managed to get things under control so quickly.
And then there's times like today, where I skipped breakfast because it was later than I wanted and I didn't want to be high at lunch. I spent all afternoon trying to decide what I wanted for dinner (was craving lasagne, but was scared because carbs and fat). I finally decided I was going to try and see what happened, but the shops didn't have any in stock. Spent waaaay too long trying to work out what I should have instead, finally decided on the same chicken salad wrap I've been having all week, even though I didn't want it. By this point it was later than I wanted to have my dinner, since I like to keep an eye on my sugars after I eat and can't do that if I'm asleep. So then literally spent the next hour crying about my f****** chicken wrap, that I didn't even want, trying to decide if I should just skip dinner too and keep my sugars good - obviously, all the time it was just getting later and later. I did eventually decide I should probably eat, but I'm regretting it now since I only just started going up and I'm knackered and want to go to bed.
I know it probably seems ridiculous to get so worked up about something so small/inconsequential, but this seems to be happening a lot lately. Is this just something that will get easier with time? How do I stop worrying about everything and every meal and constantly checking blood sugars and trying to work out what's acceptable levels/what's too high, even whether this is normal for a type 1 or more like type 2. As far as everyone else is concerned, diabetes is a very manageable condition these days and I should be able to lead a normal life and even eat 'normally', but it doesn't seem like that to me at the moment. I just want to be able to get on with my life.
Sorry for the rant - I'll be impressed if anyone actually makes it this far!