Thanks for tagging me
@Diakat.
That's bullcrap and they know it. I weigh 275lbs (19.5 st) and I am LADA, I had been gaining after my initial "T2 prediabetic" diagnosis around 2012, and confirmed LADA in 2014 after the tests. I never lost weight due to my diabetes because it was caught early, but that didn't change the fact my GAD came out positive. I recommend you ignore what people think and wait for the factual test results and base your diagnosis on that.
I've had chronic depression and anxiety since I was 15, 10 years before diagnosis. It's important to understand that what you're feeling isn't a reflection of who you are as a person or what you're capable of, but the symptoms of a disease. You wouldn't fault a chancer patient for being unable to do anything due to their condition and treatment, why would you blame yourself for being in the same boat? Not having the physical or mental energy to do things doesn't make you lazy, it makes you exhausted from a legitimate illness. It's very easy to blame yourself, but I urge you to try and reframe these thoughts.
It's probably the system making things worse. It took me, a diagnosed type LADA, 6 months to finally move to my requested insulin regime. The meds were putting me through a little hell with poor control and weight gain, but nobody wanted to hear what I said and tried to push different meds on me that I never wanted. The system can be grueling no matter where you live, but fighting for what you need is worth it. Nobody wants to inject and deal with needles, but I feel physically and mentally so much better now that I have regained a sense of control that I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat!
I don't have much experience with needle phobia. My anxiety gave me a hard time with my first 2-3 days of injecting when I started basal insulin once daily (that was 6 months before I switched fully to insulin). We tend to make it a lot worse in our heads than it really is. Easy to say, but it's true! If I wasn't looking at my pen I'd often not even know I was injecting at all, it's that painless for most shots.
My bottom line in this all is, that we understand and you're absolutely not alone. Whenever things get bad for you, we'll be here to offer you advice and a listening ear. I don't know if you're already seeing someone, but I recommend giving a psychologist a try to help you with your depression. Cognitive treatments can be very effective by giving you tools to cope with your emotions and feelings, and changing your perspective to help you reframe the situations you're in. (By reframing, I mean things like turning "Oh no I have to start injections and I'm terrified" into "It's not going to be a fun time but I'll feel so much better once I have my health back under control, let's do this!")
Also never downplay the legitimacy of your feelings. Just because 'others have it worse' doesn't mean your feelings and thoughts don't matter. Your issues are as legitimate as anyone else's. You deserve the best treatment possible. You deserve to be heard and comforted. You deserve to talk about what's going on. Don't let depression tell you otherwise!