Hi
@emmawhit32 sorry to hear you're struggling. we're all here for you though so keep your chin up!
I'm also 32, T1 since 5. Similarly to you, I've noticed my control has suffered in the last few years. It seems that as soon as I turned 30 it became so much harder to stay on top of it. Not sure if it's all biological or something to do with lifestyle change (became a dad, new job etc.)
I believe there are some medical reasons for management to become more difficult as you get older but lack the expertise to let you know what. Someone like
@Juicyj might be able to help.
I also feel your pain around family not really knowing what it's like. Something I've found really useful though is to make them listen, and even if they don't really get it they can at least (hopefully!) offer gentle words of encouragement.
One of the hardest things for me about diabetes is the fact that you can sometimes feel like the only one in the world who knows what it's like to have diabetes. For the first ten years of being diabetic the only other diabetic people I met were other kids in the paediatric waiting room. Talk about feeling isolated! But that's where finding places like this forum can really help. I've been a long-time reader here and the words I've read have been so comforting. Even the rants and moans - I can see that I'm not the only one feeling that way!
All the best, and listen to the others - get in touch with your local DSNs and get some specialist advice.
J