I started smoking at the ripe old age of 39!!! :roll: Yes, I know. I should have known better, especially as I'd tried a few ciggies on the top deck of the bus on my way to and from college at the age of 16 and found they turned me green with nausea and I had to get off the bus to be sick and never smoked again until on the day my divorce came through when I was 39. I was upset and shaky and a 'friend' offered me a cigarette and I took it and smoked it as if I was used to smoking 20 a day. And I kept on smoking for the next 10 years and at times I was reaching between 20-30 a day.
I was under tremendous stress at the time, lost my job, marriage, home, and was looking after elderly parents and became ill myself. I tried cutting down, tried stopping cold turkey and I NEVER ONCE enjoyed a cigarette so I couldn't understand why the hell I smoked at all. Yet still I couldn't stop.
Then one day I sat down and had a conversation with my cigarettes and I told them I"Thanks for being there but you can get the hell out of my life because I don't want your kind of help." I also acknowledged that smoking is a horrible, nasty, stinking, dirty habit that I really didn't want to be a part of. It was important for me to be honest about how much I disliked cigarettes AND myself for smoking the damned things and that I totally lacked willpower to just stop without help. That was REALLY important.
I then bought 24hr nicotine patches as advised by the pharmacist but that was a big mistake as they gave me palpitations and night sweats so I ended up tearing the damnded things off. I smoked for another year and went back to another pharmacy and enrolled on their programme.
They took my carbon dioxide levels, gave me a great brochure with loads of VERY SIMPLE advice and most of all a PHONE NUMBER to ring if I had cravings or problems, and they gave me the 15 HOUR PATCHES starting with 25mg first week, down to 10mg after two weeks and then down to 5mg third week.
I stuck the first one on and I didn't have any cravings at all. Took it off and night and slept. Slapped another patch on next morning. It took me 3 weeks to stop smoking completely and I can honestly say I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE I WASN'T SMOKING.
I had NO cravings and when I was in the middle of the 4th week I realised I hadn't been putting the 5mg patch on for a couple of days and hadn't even noticed. For about a month afterwards I ALWAYS carried a 5mg patch in my handbag just in case I got an unexpected craving but I never did. I had to go back to the pharmacy every Friday for the three weeks it took to stop, and they measured my carbon dioxide levels and encouraged me and gave me my new lower level patches. So I felt really supported but not preached at by anyone. And that made a big difference to me. Also I did NOT TELL anyone, friends or family that I was stopping smoking as I knew they'd watch me like a hawk and I didn't need that. I just needed to get on with unhindered.
I can honestly say that from that day 18 May 2002 I became a NON-SMOKER and I have NEVER craved, never even thought about cigarettes ever since.
Looking back I can't actually believe how addicted I was to the damned things, now I couldn't even contemplate going near a packet and feel totally repulsed by them - which is exactly how I felt BEFORE I started smoking.
Just shows what stress can do to a person's psyche. It only takes ONE second to say yes to something we shouldn't ever say yes to.
So although I'm a non-smoker already - my advice is take each day one at a time and every morning congratulate yourself that you didn't smoke yesterday and feel proud of yourself.
I WISH EVERYONE A VERY HAPPY AND SUCCESSFUL STOPTOBER

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