ladybird64
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- Type of diabetes
- Type 2
- Treatment type
- Tablets (oral)
- Dislikes
- Dishonesty, selfishness and lack of empathy.
Can I once again thank everyone who gave their advice, compassion and support to me on this thread, it was truly appreciated. I've decided this will be my last post on the thread, for the reason that follows.
I have started therapy, something I never envisaged myself doing - I "cope" with life and always have done, somehow. I've had two actual "sessions" with the therapist (a straight talker like yours truly lol) and it's become very obvious that the effect of my "coping" has been an eating disorder, an illness. Hearing the word "illness" kind of threw me because I never quite believed I was ill - and it's taken a professional to finally make me see that this is indeed the case for me.
I'm going to be in therapy for some time and I have to put the diabetes out of my mind for the time being, very difficult for me but it's creating conflict and adding to the issues. I know my bg is stable but I'm eating food I wouldn't ordinarily touch and allowing myself to do so (two slices of low GI grain bread) each morning for breakfast with manuka honey. I eat lunch and I eat dinner, and somehow, the urge to binge seems to be going. I haven't quite figured out why but I'm feeling less stressed around food, no desire to keep on eating when satiated - I think I'm moving forward. It may seem like I've got my priorities wrong, but I know that when I'm better, I will be able to follow my preferred lifestyle, which is lower carbing, and my weight will come down again - but for now, that has to take a backseat too.
Time to get rid of the ED demon at last! Will be back in the LC fold when the time is right - thanks again xx
I have started therapy, something I never envisaged myself doing - I "cope" with life and always have done, somehow. I've had two actual "sessions" with the therapist (a straight talker like yours truly lol) and it's become very obvious that the effect of my "coping" has been an eating disorder, an illness. Hearing the word "illness" kind of threw me because I never quite believed I was ill - and it's taken a professional to finally make me see that this is indeed the case for me.
I'm going to be in therapy for some time and I have to put the diabetes out of my mind for the time being, very difficult for me but it's creating conflict and adding to the issues. I know my bg is stable but I'm eating food I wouldn't ordinarily touch and allowing myself to do so (two slices of low GI grain bread) each morning for breakfast with manuka honey. I eat lunch and I eat dinner, and somehow, the urge to binge seems to be going. I haven't quite figured out why but I'm feeling less stressed around food, no desire to keep on eating when satiated - I think I'm moving forward. It may seem like I've got my priorities wrong, but I know that when I'm better, I will be able to follow my preferred lifestyle, which is lower carbing, and my weight will come down again - but for now, that has to take a backseat too.
Time to get rid of the ED demon at last! Will be back in the LC fold when the time is right - thanks again xx
