@ladybird64
Admitting the problem is halfway to solving it.
Honesty is admirable. Well done.
Can you be specific about what help you think you need?
@ladybird64 this quote from your post really resonates with me. I have regained some of the weight I lost almost 5 years ago, and it bothers me that I could be approaching my 'personal fat threshold' once again that will tip me back into diabetes BG levels.If my weight rises, I'm positive the normal levels that I have had for a few years will disappear
I've completely, utterly gone off the rails. I've had a really difficult week but am blaming nobody but myself for what's happened, nobody forced me to eat what I've been consuming. I know for sure that there will be weight increase so I'm not getting on the scales. Feel very low at the moment, especially as the food has made me feel like ****, physical issue too aren't helping.
Will dust myself off and try again.
Good for you!Your words are appreciated more than you can know. I have had a rough couple of years, a house move, then cancer, then my son's death a month later but we all have our hardships in life, I know that. This is a lifelong issue and one I hoped I'd conquered but not so. I have learned to live with anxiety and depression, and am very pro-active in finding solutions to what ails, even if it does take me thirty years lol.
Pipp, I know what you're saying and it's something I've considered recently. But I'm 95% sure that by seeing the doc, I would be offered either counselling or cognitive behavioural therapy, and that's something I don't want to do so I need to do this myself. Today has been another rough one, I don't know how tomorrow will pan out but it's a new day again. Yours and Muzza's suggestion re the bg's, I've taken on board. I have no strips as I haven't tested for a while now, and it does help to focus the mind and make the connect with what I'm eating so new strips will be with me by Tuesday.
Thanks for your ongoing support folks x
Edit - positive notes for today (but seeing the time, it's probably yesterday)
1) I should do stretches to help my radiotherapy knackered hips and thighs from seizing up - haven't done them properly for months, no motivation. I did some this morning, and attempted some sit ups (an amusing sight ), so got the motivation from somewhere.
2) I signed up to the low carb education program here. I probablyt know most of it, but figure it can't do harm, and may give me extra motivation.
3) Asked for help with my main binge eating issue (snacks and grazing) in the LC forum. That's the worst part of the BE, so tackling that will be a step forward.
4) I've ordered the test strips.
I so WILL find something good in what I've done for myself each day! (and bore everyone senseless in the process)
According to the scales, I've lost 6lbs since Monday! I had a bit of a binge on the almonds (****, they're tasty!) but apart from that, no pasta, rice or spuds at all. Feeling very positive today, and grateful for the support I'm receiving, it's really helping me x
I'm checking in daily, hope nobody minds. Helps me to keep focused for the time being. Well, Easter Sunday. After low carbing all week, I had my plan for today, a full roast dinner (I do only eat from a side plate though), I would eat some pudding today, and a mini hot cross bun. That would not provoke the cravings from hell, this was my plan. My neighbours came round three hours ago with two chocolate Easter eggs! But..
It's been ok. No brekkie, I do find that coffee with cream keeps pangs at bay, lunch was some fried peppers in tomato sauce (doesn't spike me), halloumi cheese, 2 small crackers with pate. Dinner, half a roastie, savoy cabbage, squash, few carrot slices, some parsnips and stuffing - rhubarb crumble after. I should point out that gravies, carrots, tomatoes etc don't spike me so I know I'm ok with any veg, same with stuffing. Pud was nice and I didn't feel guilty at all (I'm not a pud person anyway). I had an apple this morning (fine again) but that's it, no desire to eat more, no "triggering" of that feeling that now I'd started, I may as well really let loose for one day..none of it. And no desire to attack the eggs, or choc in the fridge.Plus, I haven't had the bun! Too full and listening to my tum instead of my mind! I will allow myself the bun tomorrow, but I'm fairly confident that I will be ok - which feels good
PS. Bg's was 7.3.
Hi LadybirdThat wasn't bad for Easter Sunday. Now you've got to keep going.