- Messages
- 61
- Type of diabetes
- Type 2
- Treatment type
- Insulin
Hi There,
Just wanted to get a few things off my chest as things have been building up for so long. Because I'm in an isolating position at the moment and I already had depression over the last few years which I've been unable to get on top of. This has had devastating kickback effects of my diabetes management. Did you ever read the Meme on Facebook, "Please don't make me Diabetes today" - Well, I'm at the point again....
I'm in a situation where I am looking after two elderly parents and the last person who's going onto my priority list is me. My Mum as advanced stages Alzheimer's and my Dad is too old to cope on his own, so 6 years ago I made the decision to stop home and make sure everything was as right as could be.
I was hit with the distressing news 2 years ago that I had proliferative retinopathy which has now kicked the **** out of my left eye (fortunately my right eye is still in relatively good tact). When that happened there was a knee jerk reaction from the GP's to put me onto insulin which is working 'okay'. But I will openly admit that I am missing occasional days and haveing a terrible time dealing with it. It sounds so simple to sort things out. I know the routines and understand my dosages etc but at the moment I'm in a double burnout..... Firstly because of the disease with my Mum and secondly the knock on effect back on me through catering for my parent's needs.
Anyway, I've not drove now for over a year because of the retinopathy as I don't feel confident, even after 4/5 lazer sessions and injections directly into both eyes. I understand from medical research that it's best to bring your A1C down slowly - But then I goto the diabetes clinic and have the Specialist nurse breathing down my kneck about getting it straight down, despite the fact that this could cause a vessel blow out in my eyes if I do it too quickly. - One of the universities recommends 3% per year MAX on an A1C.... Which when you've been as high as 18mmol on the meter, is a long battle back downhill.
I'm also acutely aware that I need to take control of my own situation, but getting a balance is hard as hell at the moment.
Anyway, just wanted to get it off my chest.... Diabetes is such a personal thing that creeps up on you like a dark beast if you let it .... Then when you're already feeling down it can and will kick you in the ass. :/
Just wondered if anyone else feels like not Diabeating today lol?
Just wanted to get a few things off my chest as things have been building up for so long. Because I'm in an isolating position at the moment and I already had depression over the last few years which I've been unable to get on top of. This has had devastating kickback effects of my diabetes management. Did you ever read the Meme on Facebook, "Please don't make me Diabetes today" - Well, I'm at the point again....
I'm in a situation where I am looking after two elderly parents and the last person who's going onto my priority list is me. My Mum as advanced stages Alzheimer's and my Dad is too old to cope on his own, so 6 years ago I made the decision to stop home and make sure everything was as right as could be.
I was hit with the distressing news 2 years ago that I had proliferative retinopathy which has now kicked the **** out of my left eye (fortunately my right eye is still in relatively good tact). When that happened there was a knee jerk reaction from the GP's to put me onto insulin which is working 'okay'. But I will openly admit that I am missing occasional days and haveing a terrible time dealing with it. It sounds so simple to sort things out. I know the routines and understand my dosages etc but at the moment I'm in a double burnout..... Firstly because of the disease with my Mum and secondly the knock on effect back on me through catering for my parent's needs.
Anyway, I've not drove now for over a year because of the retinopathy as I don't feel confident, even after 4/5 lazer sessions and injections directly into both eyes. I understand from medical research that it's best to bring your A1C down slowly - But then I goto the diabetes clinic and have the Specialist nurse breathing down my kneck about getting it straight down, despite the fact that this could cause a vessel blow out in my eyes if I do it too quickly. - One of the universities recommends 3% per year MAX on an A1C.... Which when you've been as high as 18mmol on the meter, is a long battle back downhill.
I'm also acutely aware that I need to take control of my own situation, but getting a balance is hard as hell at the moment.
Anyway, just wanted to get it off my chest.... Diabetes is such a personal thing that creeps up on you like a dark beast if you let it .... Then when you're already feeling down it can and will kick you in the ass. :/
Just wondered if anyone else feels like not Diabeating today lol?