Hi all, I've found myself in a bit of a dark place recently surrounding my type 1 and ED, I just need a safe place to vent with people who understand, I hope that is okay. I've been type 1 for 17 years, I'm now 27. By hba1c has been up and down over the years, slightly above target a lot of the time but never much cause for concern. As of yet (touch wood) I have got away with any complications as a result of my diabetes, only background retinopathy. I was always an overweight child (apart from the months surrounding my diagnosis!) and for as long as I can remember I've been trying to lose weight. This is something I'm still battling with now and have been going round and round in circles with various slimming clubs. Over the past 10 years I would say I've had very disordered eating - as yet unofficially diagnosed but have spoke openly to GP, DSN, diabetes psychologist and consultant about this topic. I can go weeks religiously carb counting and staying within range by eating well, but there are periods (currently on week 4) where I just don't care what I eat. I binge and binge and inject and inject. Sugars this week hit 25 and it was a real shock to my system but not enough to kick me out-of this horrible cycle. I've got an appointment in a few days with my DSN so will talk to her about this,but just feel so alone and helpless and don't know what to do. I know I am in control of what I do and what I eat, and I'm bloody frustrated with myself for not just pulling myself together, but having been diagnosed with depression I know it's not as simple as that! Thank you so much for reading, I'm not sure what I expect from this post, I suppose to just be reassured I'm not alone!