Look at all the support here, you are not alone.as already said don't worry about the graphs and everything else stick to your numbers and finding a way to control your diabetes in a way that works for you. You will have ups and downs,good days and bad days but use them as learning experiences to gain better control and you will see your control improve I am sure. Also remember on these forums people are here to help so although there is a lot of celebrating which may make you feel like a bad diabetic when you read how well others do just remember even the best controlled people have bad days and I am sure all diabetics have been where you are at some point where it seems a losing battle but i find take it one day at a time works best as with diabetes no 2 days will ever be the same.