Thank You All. Yes, I am not working - I packed in work 15 years ago to look after/care for my Mother who developed Alzheimer's and type 2 Diabetes. For 9 years I cared for my Mum who slowly changed into somebody else, and towards the end did not know who I was or had no memory of my Dad, or 50 years marriage and the 5 children they had. It will be 6 years in October my Mum just collapsed and died. The shock and the guilt I felt made me 'Shut Down' for a very long time to the point I stopped/could not go out. And just let my own diabetes of which I had very good control of for 10 years go down the drain! (4 stone in weight soon got put on). My partner and I met in 1998 and we "married" in 2008 - HE ( Yes - not mis-spelt) has been my rock and by my side throughout, and I am still on the road to recovery.
Forgot to say, that I am a Qualified Psychiatric Nurse and looking after other people is easy, but when it is your nearest/dearest it is so very different. And now at a "young" 60 years of age I could not go back into nursing - ever!! William.