If I ever get to the point where I am unconscious due to some awful diabetic complication I'm not sure I want anyone reviving me. Can I get a wrist band that says "do not resuscitate?"
I think this is a perspective thing and I am starting to get the idea that my perspective is very different to that of someone who got this disease at the age of 6. My attitude is that I want to get as far away from it as possible and bury it as deep as I can, the last thing I would want to do is put it on a T shirt, "look at me, I'm broken."
You're not a lesser person than anyone else. You've not been picked on by some omniscient god. And you're certainly not broken.
Nobody wants to have diabetes and we all agree that it sucks. But if you let it get you down, if you don't make a stand and shout 'F£+! YOU!' then you're the one letting it win. Tell that son of a beech tree that you're not going to let it ruin your life and that you have the strength and the support to punch it in the gut, set it on fire and chuck it out of the window.
Now, of course, it'll climb back through that window and back into your life - it's never gong to go away, but at least it'll feel a little sheepish and be on your back less.
Metaphors aside, take control of your blood sugars. It really isn't all that hard. I promise. Test before you eat anything and inject whatever the calculations say. That's it. That's all I did and I went from HbA1c of over 100 to 54 in 3 months. I used to be in a similar place to you (yeah, I've read a whole bunch of your previous posts) but taking a hold of my life and my diabetes has made me a new person. I feel positive, energised and ALIVE. And I want to stay that way.
It's good that you let your emotions out on here. But listen to what people are saying to you and act on the advice. As
@JoeT1 said, you are in control. He didn't mean your blood sugars, he meant your life. You have all you need to be a better peson. It just takes effort.
I look forward to reading a super positive reply to this post...
