I don't want to waste forum space or time but thought I would share what may be helpful - ignore by all means.
What is happening in mind at the moment is almost comical but quite surreal. I really want to return to expected numbers and relaxed assurance about what I am doing. My brain keeps telling me just thinking that is unhelpful and will only make things worse. It then tells me that those thoughts will only make things worse.

Obviously, I then try to create the perfect conditions to achieve the "normal" outcomes - which make my mind think don't be so ridiculous, Which then ..... It is very funny really but not too healthy I would imagine.

Oh my, I now have an earworm - try Fairground attraction. Just the chorus
