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MrSlim has got up early and gone to get his hair cut, later he is out for lunch with a a group of men.
For weeks I have been a slow starter and will need to do better. Can't be still in pyjamas mid morning when visiting. Will be expected to engage. Socialise.
Today trying to find suitable apparel for Christmas day. Boxing day is easier, much more casual. Am sure i will be exoected to dress up for Christmas lunch. However I have few clothes that are not practical. No doubt my mother and sister will be wearing diamonds.
Such an insignificant thing to need so much thought.
Hug for the worry of fitting whatever dress code seems appropriate.
Going out on a limb here, so bear with me.
Struggled post trauma to cope very well in social situations.
I keep a lid on it, but it's always bubbling under the surface
( The feeling people are staring at the Scarring & limping, mainly)
What helped me, mad as it sounds, is I made those situations into a SiM's game, in my head.
When I get those feelings, I think ok, everyone of those is a SIM, and they're are only there to fill out the Game & if I turned the game OFF, they'd disappear and are of no consequence to me
Which means I can ignore those thoughts when I feel people look or stare.
And only worry about those SiMs I choose to interact with ...in whatever way I choose ...nice
The rest basically are just wallpaper or extras in my movie .
It's given me a confidence to deal with some troubling moments.
It must be how actors feel playing a major role.
Full of confidence & fully at ease with the part.
Not sure if you could fully filter out some members of the family,
But it does make those 'awkward' situations more bearable for me, & gives me a perverse joy, to mull over switching off one or two of the annoying Sims I've met since my resurrection & reintegration into polite society.
Yes, I know I sound mad.
Simple reason is I think I am sometimes.
), was celebrated on Winter Solstice 21st. I can't give you more light but have a song (sorry Enrico) and a poem.
