A 6.8 today and so tired.
The weather is windy, windy, windy and now raining and it is so baltic.
I'm not good. The endless stream of difficulties that Mrs L is putting me through, is at last taking its full toll on me. I'm trying to do the chores but I just don't have the enthusiasm or the will to carry on this way. I am struggling to get through today.
Tomorrow is gonna be the same battle and I have no idea how I can make it through it all.
Sorry!
Best wishes.
You know my background, big D
So you know I say this with kindness afore front..
Maybe now IS the time to garner what previous resources you have, and Start deciding what IS really important.
It's sounds clear you are at full stretch, so something has to give.
It's either YOU or a task you consider important , that maybe isn't, or at least not every day ..?
It's the Alamo
You're saving ammo by picking your targets, so you all survive.
Is now the right time to be tidying up?
Or doing the dishes ?
Of course the tasks Will still need doing..
But I think as hard as it is, You have got to let something's go, so you can concentrate on what is truly imperative .
It might be doing less.
It might be resting more
It's whatever gets YOU through each day ..hopefully in as good a shape as possible to face the next day.
I know it can be hard, when you think you must maintain a certain standard or routine..
But is it appropriate you do do much ?
Is doing that thing or those things really of SO much worth compared to your health ?
When there's so much you have to do every day ?
I don't mean to offend, but when you're under fire from all sides, sometimes it's best to just avoid unnecessary tasks or errands.
I sense you're a tough independent chap, from all of your posts otherwise how on earth did you arrive at a treatment method to combat the rhd ?
You my friend are wise, resourceful,, stubborn & caring.
You have the answer within you for how to best deploy the energies you have, in the best way for you so Mrs L and yourself remain as safe as possible.
I know it may have crossed your mind already, but it never hurts to hear your own plan set out by another .
Best wishes for you both
Prayers for what they are worth said for you both .
GP has treated me for diverticulitis with 21 antibiotics which I had to take 3x/day with food. The timings meant I had to eat something twice more often per day than normal. Then last evening I ate several carby and sugary treats so it's my own fault that I woke feeling unsettled and tested my sugars. At least it means I can legitimately post on here. I have been following you all every day and send sympathies and positive thoughts to those who are struggling at the moment. I sincerely hope you receive the help you need asap. Take care everyone. 
