I'd echo what
@Juicyj has said
@lalacakez and please seek some help with regards to the habits you have gotten into. I understand it can be frustrating to say the scales not move or even go up even when you are doing some of the right things, but believe me, it's not the route to go down.
I have always had a bad relationship with food, before diagnosis. I was pretty much bulimic when I was younger as I grew up a little chubby, or at least in my mind, a little chubby. I got massively into being bulimic, and in turn lost the weight, to the point of being too skinny. After this, I got into the gym and weightlifting, again, small bit of an addictive mentality and made some good progress there, but again, unhealthy progress as I took certain supplements that you just simply shouldn't need to take. I always ALWAYS have a body image issue, looking for the flaws all the time.
Since diagnosis, I found myself not fretting as much, concentrating more on getting into a routine and getting my blood sugards stable. I have seen over the last couple of months this has turned a little, and although keeping my blood sugars as good as they have been since diagnosis, I am focusing on my body a little too much. I was happy to see I didn't require insulin as much with Keto, thinking adding this to my 10,000-18,000 steps a day and working out a couple of times a week, the weight (only 5-7lbs) would just come off. I have restricted my eating, perhaps a little too much for my comfort and lost 4lbs, but have been stuck on that for a week or two now. Now I can sense it creeping into my head that it's the insulin that is just stopping me from losing the weight, and even if I do lose another couple of lbs, once I start incorporating a little more food again, i'll just throw it back on straight away.
It's incredibly frustrating, which gets me a little at times because I absolutely know I should concentrate more on just feeling good and healthy, but in turn it seems i'm wired to get that mostly from how I believe I look. Most would say i'm in decent shape, have no weight to lose and am healthy, but anybody who has felt the way I do will tell you it's not that simple.
Certainly not a cry for help. Just a little let off of steam I guess. I see the route others have gone down, and feel like I should throw away the scales that I weight myself on once to twice a day for madness reasons, and focus on how I feel and the guy I see in the mirror.