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Realised this morning that I had put on 2lb.
And I feel dreadfully....big. I feel, for want of a better phrase, "Absolutely shocking"!.
My diet has gone from very good to dreadful. Okay, moderately dreadful- should do better- oh what am I doing ?- type of dreadful.
I know that, if my HbA1c was done tomorrow it would be in the 60s or 70s...far removed from the 41 I was last time.
My operation scar is now just that, a scar. Its all healed but now, when I eat, probably because of what I eat, I feel heavy and bloated...
I just cant get comfortable. At all.
I don't look like I have put on weight and my scales tell me that its "just" 2lb, yet it feels like I'm back at the 15st 9lb I was before all this started. Not at the 13st 5lb my scales tell me I still am.
I'm trying to exercise. Trying to exercise with fibromyalgia, a lack of sleep and the pain in the mornings is off the charts!. But I'm pushing myself to get out and drag myself along.
I'm eating sweets. Not because I want them but because I cant find an alternative that I want to eat. I'm not eating hundreds and my consumption of potato, bread, pasta and most heavy carbs, is virtually nil. I've not eaten tubs of ice cream or cakes or puddings or biscuits, yet every time I eat something "wrong" I just want to thump myself.
Part of this is fear. Fear of going back to where I was in the operation run up, controlling my diabetes but losing weight which had my doctor concerned. Now I'm not losing weight but my diets gone and I am too tired and unmotivated, perhaps, though not in my mind, to get it back in case I take it too far.
I want to feel "right". I cant really put into words how awful I feel today-horribly bloated, feeling gross - and I'm probably not- am not, but that's how I am feeling.
I'm sure it is easier when you have a target to aim for. But I do- long term health, but that's not enough...and I want to recapture, within moderation, where I was before...
Ah, sorry for another moan, sorry for another "pity me" statement. Perhaps the dietician can help, when I see her, in a fortnight...
But that seems like a long way away.
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And I feel dreadfully....big. I feel, for want of a better phrase, "Absolutely shocking"!.
My diet has gone from very good to dreadful. Okay, moderately dreadful- should do better- oh what am I doing ?- type of dreadful.
I know that, if my HbA1c was done tomorrow it would be in the 60s or 70s...far removed from the 41 I was last time.
My operation scar is now just that, a scar. Its all healed but now, when I eat, probably because of what I eat, I feel heavy and bloated...
I just cant get comfortable. At all.
I don't look like I have put on weight and my scales tell me that its "just" 2lb, yet it feels like I'm back at the 15st 9lb I was before all this started. Not at the 13st 5lb my scales tell me I still am.
I'm trying to exercise. Trying to exercise with fibromyalgia, a lack of sleep and the pain in the mornings is off the charts!. But I'm pushing myself to get out and drag myself along.
I'm eating sweets. Not because I want them but because I cant find an alternative that I want to eat. I'm not eating hundreds and my consumption of potato, bread, pasta and most heavy carbs, is virtually nil. I've not eaten tubs of ice cream or cakes or puddings or biscuits, yet every time I eat something "wrong" I just want to thump myself.
Part of this is fear. Fear of going back to where I was in the operation run up, controlling my diabetes but losing weight which had my doctor concerned. Now I'm not losing weight but my diets gone and I am too tired and unmotivated, perhaps, though not in my mind, to get it back in case I take it too far.
I want to feel "right". I cant really put into words how awful I feel today-horribly bloated, feeling gross - and I'm probably not- am not, but that's how I am feeling.
I'm sure it is easier when you have a target to aim for. But I do- long term health, but that's not enough...and I want to recapture, within moderation, where I was before...
Ah, sorry for another moan, sorry for another "pity me" statement. Perhaps the dietician can help, when I see her, in a fortnight...
But that seems like a long way away.
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