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Always depressed... Suicide awaits

@Meghalton thanks for starting this thread. You probably don't realise this but you are helping others (me included) by writing about how you feel and that's not selfish at all. Keep posting :)

Well done on taking your insulin, that's a big step. I'm proud of you.
 
Sorry i haven't been on here for a little bit. Well I am still feeling incredibly low and when going to the doctors he seemed like he wanted to help.... Nothing has actually been done. I haven't had an appointment with a councillor or given medication. Although I took my insulin and I should hopefully carry on taking it, I am still feeling the same. You are all lovely people, I feel bad that you felt you had to support me. Thank you for everything x
 
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Hi Meghalton
You must be disappointed that the doctor provided nothing. We all need support one way or another and there is no reason not to seek it when necessary. Sorry to hear your feelings haven't improved so I hope you are able to stand your ground and wait for your condition to improve.
Do keep in touch.
 
hi meg -- none of us felt like we had to support you -- we all want to support you because in our own way we have been there in your shoes.
just keep in touch for now and try your best -- you matter to me !
 
I'm feeling incredibly low. I just don't want to be here any more. Usually I feel a little bit of hope but right now I feel completely lost. No body is here to help. I feel alone.
 
Don't forget we are here. You aren't alone, not really. Keep talking. Don't forget Stephen Fry and his 'weather 'comments. The darkest hour is usually the one before the dawn.
 
Meghalton said:
I'm feeling incredibly low. I just don't want to be here any more. Usually I feel a little bit of hope but right now I feel completely lost. No body is here to help. I feel alone.
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Hi Meg, sorry that your GP didn't understand just how desperate you are feeling at the moment. I suspect you have been too polite, considerate and understated when trying to explain your feelings. You've been so brave over the past few days and CAN keep going one day at a time. Perhaps you could contact your GP out-of-hours or local walk-in centre and request an urgent appointment. Write a short note stating that you are feeling suicidal and have begun to think of not taking your insulin in order to achieve this aim. You could print out a copy of this thread if that's easier. Hand it over and ask them for urgent help - they will listen once they realise how bad your situation is getting.
Everyone here is very happy to listen and support you, because you matter hugely to us, please keep posting xx
 
Please if you are feeling actively suicidal go to A and E there u will b referred to psych liason and immediately get support. What your gp did was neglectful you should not have been left in the same state u walked in, . Being referred to councillors can take weeks or even months but going the above route will get help quickly. If yr depression is mainly health linked you can be referred to a clinical psychologist.who will help u deal with and come to terms with your health isdues. I have seen 1 and it was very helpful really helped me rethink my ferlings, hard esp as wellas the diabetes i have brittle asthma ,2 different cardiac issues, kidney disease and joint problems.
Please do consider my suggestion
 
I agree that you shouldn't have been left feeling so bad. Printing out this thread and showing a doctor would be a good idea.

When I went into the surgery for routine a check on my blood thickness with a nurse, it was way too thick ( I was supposed to be taking Warfarin) . I told the nurse I felt down and just couldn't be bothered to remember to take my medication anymore. She left the room and called a GP in to speak to me. He asked the right questions and arranged for me to have counselling and to go onto anti-depressants. He said there was no rush and if I needed to chat for over an hour I could. I was gobsmacked. I hadn't always found GPs to be that helpful. This is the way you should have been treated too, with care and compassion. I hope the next doctor/nurse you see truly understands the situation and helps you.
 
Meghalton said:
I'm feeling incredibly low. I just don't want to be here any more. Usually I feel a little bit of hope but right now I feel completely lost. No body is here to help. I feel alone.
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Hi,

The climb to the summit is arduous. But the view from the top is exhilarating..!
 
Meghalton said:
I'm feeling incredibly low. I just don't want to be here any more. Usually I feel a little bit of hope but right now I feel completely lost. No body is here to help. I feel alone.
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Aaww bless your heart, I wish I could give you a real hug, we are all here for you, honestly you are not 'alone' x
 
@Meghalton You are not alone, we are all here for you and thinking of you. The clocks go forward tonight, I always start feeling better once the evenings get lighter, the days get longer and I know Spring is here and Summer isn't far off, after the gloom and darkness of Winter.
I feel sometimes we have to know the dark times to appreciate the good times. Neither bad or good times last forever. And when you are at your lowest the only way is up. All a bit trite I know, but it is true.
 
Meg, please go and put on a warm coat, hat and some good walking boots and get some fresh air, going for a walk, breathing in fresh air will help how you are feeling right now alot, try and take your time to look at flowers starting to bloom and enjoy the walk. When you are feeling so low it's hard to find the motivation to do anything but even this will help you alot. Can you talk to your boyfriend about how you are feeling or doesn't he know ? Is there anyone in your family you can talk to ?

When I was depressed I too came back feeling low from the doctors, I thought by going it would make me feel better, but as I walked away with no help too, I had to dig out the help I needed, so ended up doing meditation with a Buddhist group, very kind, friendly bunch, helped me alot.

With depression we are keen to dismiss the feeling we have, it's not a pleasant feeling and we want to get an instant feel better feeling, the trick with depression is to acknowledge how you feel, be mindful of what thoughts you have, to learn to accept them, even write them down and then as thoughts do just let them pass.

Depression is temporary as Stephen said, they will pass, it will get better and yes we all do care about you x
 
Meghalton
You are right. We can't help you here. Going to A&E is the best advice I can see here as you are in emergency stage. Please find help.
 
Meghalton said:
Sorry i haven't been on here for a little bit. Well I am still feeling incredibly low and when going to the doctors he seemed like he wanted to help.... Nothing has actually been done. I haven't had an appointment with a councillor or given medication. Although I took my insulin and I should hopefully carry on taking it, I am still feeling the same. You are all lovely people, I feel bad that you felt you had to support me. Thank you for everything x
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We all need support every now and again and some more than others, but everyone in the diabetes community seems to support one another whether we are asking for it or not so don't feel bad!! Did you talk to your gp or your doctor at the diabetes clinic? If it were the gp then mention something to your doctor at the clinic and if you mentioned something to the doctor at the clinic tell your gp... And sorry for the waffle lol
 
Big hugs Meg.
Can I ask... Are you registered at a hospital?
I think it may be an idea if perhaps you might consider talking to a DSN at hospital? Some hospitals and areas have support groups and some can offer help to see their advisers for depression.
Please don't be put off by one bad Counsellor.
Are there anythings in your life that you do enjoy doing? You mentioned a boyfriend, do you manage to go out and enjoy yourself with him?

I get low too. You are definitely not alone. We have to test and inject etc and it does make us different to the mainstream of people around us... When I was diagnosed 30+ years ago I had the fear of God put in me from my hospital staff... A Counsellor a long time ago said that fear of God made me accept "2nd best" and that I didn't accept good things in life happening because I thought that by the time I was 50 I would be dead. From horrible complications.

30+ years on and past 50 now I am here and although I've had another health issue its not diabetic complication related...

I really would suggest that if you can that you try to see your diabetes team at hospital... Talk to them. If you are just with a GP for your diabetes care ask if the GP can refer you to hospital.

I know my DSN at my last hospital specialised in helping young persons that were struggling...they will understand and will be able to help.
 
I'm type 1 diabetic have been for 14 years and I felt the same way for year and years it's only been the past month I've really started to try and sort myself out. I can be so hard and I've thought about ending it so many times before but now my girlfriend is having a baby and I have a new lease on life you need to find something to give you the motivation and a little pick me up.
 
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