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Always depressed... Suicide awaits

Meghalton said:
I'm feeling incredibly low. I just don't want to be here any more. Usually I feel a little bit of hope but right now I feel completely lost. No body is here to help. I feel alone.
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Hi Meg,
You have made a huge step letting the group know how you are feeling, this must have taken a lot of courage and in doing this you I am sure you are also helping a lot of others me included in the group that are feeling or have felt like you. The next step is to get someone in the medical profession to listen to you, maybe best to write how you are feeling down to hand to them. Hope this makes sense as I am not good at putting my thoughts into words.
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Senga
 
Thank you for all the comments, it means so much. I am still remaining a little in hope now- after writing up that message this morning, I actually pushed myself to go out of my house today- I thought "I haven't left in a week, time to do something.". Definitely positive, thank you all for the comments, it has helped me a lot in my deep dark state. Trying to look forward xx
 
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Hi Meg

When down.. Try to think of giving yourself a nudge...

I painted a box the other week and put words on it that are relevent to me with my current health problems. As I pass it each day numerous times it does just bump my thoughts up when I'm struggling...

Hope you had an enjoyable Easter. Please keep in touch..
Sxx
 
Meg, I wish you the best. Please keep trying with your health care providers and ring the samaritans if necessary x
 
That box looks great and such a good idea!
I am still struggling but I am hanging in there. I have organised another appointment with the doctor on Thursday. I really need help but haven't had any yet.... Will try to be brutally honest to make sure the listen xxxxxx thanks to everyone for the support, it really does mean a lot xxxxxx
 
Hey Meg - good to hear from you. Before you go to the doctors please write down how you have been feeling, what thoughts you have had and why you think you have been feeling this way. When sat in front of the doctor it is sometimes hard to verbalise our inner feelings, sometimes we can feel embarrassed or ashamed, but what was so important one minute can seem trivial the next - if you read this out to your doctor they should sit up and listen, it shows how much you need help and it will re-enforce to your GP how important this is, even if you don't read it out you could pass it to them. Also see if a close friend or your boyfriend can go with you, you need as much support as possible right now x
 
There are counsellors who work with diabetic teams so there are options. Your doing awesome talking and seeing the GP . I wish you the best
 
I have only just seen this thread and read through most of it, and I'm angry, angry on your behalf that a counsellor told you that other people have it worse than you. It seems like this counsellor was pretty much telling you to pull yourself together, and that is something they should never ever do. The counsellor was in the wrong, not you for for seeking help.

That you are are talking about it here, and that you have made an appointment to see a GP, shows that you really want help, and you recognise that you need it too. That's great, and you took those steps, and maybe you're stronger than you think you are, and you can take that and see it as your first positive in all of this.

Contact your diabetes nurse, preferably the one at the hospital, or even your consultant as well, they will all be willing to help I'm sure. And you are doing better than you think you are, so don't feel bad about it.
 
I also had a Counsellor lady recently (linked to Breast Cancer care) tell me that she knows lots of T1's that have had operations and didn't have any problems..
Made me feel totally isolated... When you feel like you are the only one thats had **** care in hospital you don't want somebody telling you that eeryone they know has been fine. You just need understanding on how to let go of your angst about future operations and stays in hospital can be improved.
I have an outstanding complaint with the hospital. Their mistakes have been so huge. Ie I got a copy of my medical notes and asked for a 2nd opinion. The 2nd opinion was that my right breast should also have been biopsied.
Now waiting for the results. 6 months later... The care at that particular hospital was dire... And I needed help with angst and not adding to it..
I know someone that gets inside knowledge of the complaints at that hospital and I know I'm not the only one....

So Counsellors can be good or bad... If you find a Counsellor not good then ask for a different person.
 
I am deeply saddened to hear this in the counselling field and I am aware I guess it's like most professions where there are good and bad. All I can say is they probably were responding from their own problems , they shouldn't be and no way excuses it but donnellydogs is right it about finding the one that fits you and no harm in asking for another


donnellysdogs said:
I also had a Counsellor lady recently (linked to Breast Cancer care) tell me that she knows lots of T1's that have had operations and didn't have any problems..
Made me feel totally isolated... When you feel like you are the only one thats had **** care in hospital you don't want somebody telling you that eeryone they know has been fine. You just need understanding on how to let go of your angst about future operations and stays in hospital can be improved.
I have an outstanding complaint with the hospital. Their mistakes have been so huge. Ie I got a copy of my medical notes and asked for a 2nd opinion. The 2nd opinion was that my right breast should also have been biopsied.
Now waiting for the results. 6 months later... The care at that particular hospital was dire... And I needed help with angst and not adding to it..
I know someone that gets inside knowledge of the complaints at that hospital and I know I'm not the only one....

So Counsellors can be good or bad... If you find a Counsellor not good then ask for a different person.
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I've been there - am still going through it in fact! This will sound hollow to you right now but you are precious. Please take care of yourself as no one else can. I've found medication and talking therapies really helpful. Try the Mind website (or Young Minds depending on your age). Diabetes is a pain in the **** sometimes but try and embrace it - I have days when I hate it, but at other times I like the fact it forces me to eat healthily and exercise. You can get through this. I've also found talking to my diabetic nurse and consultant helpful - they're really sympathetic. Stay strong and keep talking x
 
@Meghalton How did the appointment with your GP go yesterday? I hope you got some help and you are feeling better.

@mllegarf Welcome to the forum. I try to embrace depression too, medication does help me, and I just take things easy when it comes on.
 
mllegarf said:
I've been there - am still going through it in fact! This will sound hollow to you right now but you are precious. Please take care of yourself as no one else can. I've found medication and talking therapies really helpful. Try the Mind website (or Young Minds depending on your age). Diabetes is a pain in the **** sometimes but try and embrace it - I have days when I hate it, but at other times I like the fact it forces me to eat healthily and exercise. You can get through this. I've also found talking to my diabetic nurse and consultant helpful - they're really sympathetic. Stay strong and keep talking x
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Do you think you would cope with being diabetic better if you could control your bg levels with insulin injected twice per day instead of MDI and make a compromise over carbohydrate and eat it on a 'little but often basis'? I really dont like to read messages from people who are depressed and fed up because of diabetes and MDI.
 
Just checking in with you @Meghalton and wondering how you got on with the GP? This thread seems to have struck a chord with lots of people, you've been very brave in opening up :)
 
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