Im having many emotions in the last week, mainly crying. But also anger. Im so angry at myself for letting myself get into this situation. Every donut and cake I knew what I was likely doing but was in denial and this is where I ended up. This doesnt just effect me, it effects my husband life too and the guilt is horrible. Im sorry for the pity party but I need to vent. This isnt a case of “why me”, its “why was a such an idiot”. Pretty devastated.