You do a lot. You are doing well, very well. I admire you, I am very aware of how difficult it sometimes becomes. We all have to go through the "do I need more carbs, more insulin" and so on several times a day, it is, unfortunately, part of life with diabetes but necessary to remain well & to be able to do all the things you need to/ want to. Personally it needs to be put into some sort of perspective like reminding yourself that it is a small price to pay to remain well, to have precious energy, to look after yourself, your 2 boys & husband, to work, to drive, to look good (in a previous post I whinged about high sugars making me look like the beast from hell and expanding my stomach so I look as though I am just about to give birth (no joke)!!!! Remind yourself of why you do all the things you do then let it pass, don't dwell on it. If it is a wrong decision you can self correct later. You work hard, do you treat yourself regularly ? (visit to a beautician, new clothes, new lippy, a good read, a meal out, a coffee out, a visit to the pub, dancing---even in the kitchen---whatever turns you on, we are all different....what is a treat for 1 person is absolute hell for another)!! All the very best xx