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Hello diabuddies! I am indeed new to this forum. How is everyone?
I'll be brief but please bring some snacks and maybe some tissues, because someone is cutting onions.
I am been a diabetic since 2001 at the age of 8, does anyone remember mixtard 30? for about 6-7 years from primary to first 3 years of secondary school, it was a lot of DKA, self hate, rebellion where I did not want to take insulin and depression. Thats when my consultant and DSN at the time decided to put me on novorapid and levemir, it was a rocky start.
Fast forward to 2013, where this girl is going to university for the first time and I was most certainly excited. At that time, I registered to see a GP there and that GP prescribed me only 1 box of test strips and I was naive and didn't ask for more. I think those particular test strips was costing them too much money? It was that ancient One Touch Ultra blood glucose meter. ( oh we are going back in time) This was when the problems starting arising, I was running out of test strips very quickly. This resulted in me going through weekends without testing so I could pick my prescription on mondays. I kept going back and repeating for more test strips. Unfortunately during autumn-winter semester, I had two hypos. one was where I wasn't alive to assist myself and my housemates who I am still grateful for, assisted me but they didn't know much about diabetes. Ambulance came, sugar drip and gels and what not, I came back with slurry speech. After christmas and new years, I was greeted by their parents and the look in their eyes was very unhappy. They spoke to me saying "our son and daughters shouldn't be looking after you, you should be looking after yourself". Few weeks later, my housemates moved out because I caused them to be depressed and unfocused on their uni work, they said they were unable to sleep at night. So I was isolated and alone for the spring-summer term 2014 in that house. Since then I have been in and out of uni due to hypoglycemias, after that accident I couldn't sleep, I would spend most nights until 6-7am because I'm too scared to sleep.
To present day, my parents are urging me to finish my degree and I am a bit reluctant to go back because my housemates are still at that university. I did move from SE London to Leeds, then to Warwickshire. I did meet my BF last year in Leeds but we moved to west midlands because of his job. Since registering at a new GP, they seem okay and have referred me to Warwick hospital. I saw my new consultant on 2nd April, I explained the situation that I was in and he prescribed Tresiba, so far it's been okay and not too much of a sharp rise in between meets and in the morning. I, of course did DAFNE in November 2018 back in SE London because it was one of the criteria for an insulin pump. But so far my new consultant said he'd consider me for a pump but not yet, because he just knew me. maybe in a couple of months? I don't know if an insulin pump would help.
So my question is, How does one move forward from this mess? I know some people might say just move on, but I feel it's not as easy as moving on. Some could argue that my housemates aren't real friends - I don't dislike them, I don't hate them but I felt I wasn't heard and it wasn't me abusing myself to have such a severe hypo. If I had more test strips, I'd doubt I would have had that severe hypo but no one asked what my situation was. I felt like I was the enemy in that situation. I do blame my own condition for pushing people away, I have no friends at university and the only friend I have is my boyfriend. who helps me in situations when I need him.
I am not asking for sympathy, I just feel quite lonely at the moment.
I hope you have a nice day.
I'll be brief but please bring some snacks and maybe some tissues, because someone is cutting onions.
I am been a diabetic since 2001 at the age of 8, does anyone remember mixtard 30? for about 6-7 years from primary to first 3 years of secondary school, it was a lot of DKA, self hate, rebellion where I did not want to take insulin and depression. Thats when my consultant and DSN at the time decided to put me on novorapid and levemir, it was a rocky start.
Fast forward to 2013, where this girl is going to university for the first time and I was most certainly excited. At that time, I registered to see a GP there and that GP prescribed me only 1 box of test strips and I was naive and didn't ask for more. I think those particular test strips was costing them too much money? It was that ancient One Touch Ultra blood glucose meter. ( oh we are going back in time) This was when the problems starting arising, I was running out of test strips very quickly. This resulted in me going through weekends without testing so I could pick my prescription on mondays. I kept going back and repeating for more test strips. Unfortunately during autumn-winter semester, I had two hypos. one was where I wasn't alive to assist myself and my housemates who I am still grateful for, assisted me but they didn't know much about diabetes. Ambulance came, sugar drip and gels and what not, I came back with slurry speech. After christmas and new years, I was greeted by their parents and the look in their eyes was very unhappy. They spoke to me saying "our son and daughters shouldn't be looking after you, you should be looking after yourself". Few weeks later, my housemates moved out because I caused them to be depressed and unfocused on their uni work, they said they were unable to sleep at night. So I was isolated and alone for the spring-summer term 2014 in that house. Since then I have been in and out of uni due to hypoglycemias, after that accident I couldn't sleep, I would spend most nights until 6-7am because I'm too scared to sleep.
To present day, my parents are urging me to finish my degree and I am a bit reluctant to go back because my housemates are still at that university. I did move from SE London to Leeds, then to Warwickshire. I did meet my BF last year in Leeds but we moved to west midlands because of his job. Since registering at a new GP, they seem okay and have referred me to Warwick hospital. I saw my new consultant on 2nd April, I explained the situation that I was in and he prescribed Tresiba, so far it's been okay and not too much of a sharp rise in between meets and in the morning. I, of course did DAFNE in November 2018 back in SE London because it was one of the criteria for an insulin pump. But so far my new consultant said he'd consider me for a pump but not yet, because he just knew me. maybe in a couple of months? I don't know if an insulin pump would help.
So my question is, How does one move forward from this mess? I know some people might say just move on, but I feel it's not as easy as moving on. Some could argue that my housemates aren't real friends - I don't dislike them, I don't hate them but I felt I wasn't heard and it wasn't me abusing myself to have such a severe hypo. If I had more test strips, I'd doubt I would have had that severe hypo but no one asked what my situation was. I felt like I was the enemy in that situation. I do blame my own condition for pushing people away, I have no friends at university and the only friend I have is my boyfriend. who helps me in situations when I need him.
I am not asking for sympathy, I just feel quite lonely at the moment.
I hope you have a nice day.