Hi everyone, I’m Emma. I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes last Friday. In some ways it wasn’t surprising but it was a shock nonetheless. To cut a long story short: I’m 38 and overweight...well obese, lets be honest. My husband and I faced fertility issues for the last ten years due to my weight. I’ve had glucose tests in the past but they have been fine. After ten years trying we finally conceived a baby naturally in August last year. All seemed to be going well. I would have been having my gestational diabetes screening in the next week or so which would have flagged up an issue. However, in November we devastatingly lost our baby boy at 16 weeks gestation. All scans etc previously had been good. There were a couple of obvious deformities when he was born via induced labour a couple of days later. His left hand was missing a thumb and the bones were fused in the wrist. He also had a hole in his abdomen and his bowel was poking through. It has been the worst two months of my life. Utterly devastating. I haven’t been able to return to my job as a teacher in a special school yet as I am a mess. At the time we were induced to deliver our boy, it was noticed that my blood sugar was high. Fast forward to repeat hba1c test two weeks ago and a call from the GP to request a face to face meeting. I expected her to say they wanted to investigate further with the lasting glucose test but she gave me the diabetic diagnosis there and then and has put me straight onto metformin. I’m still coming to terms with it all and am terrified to eat anything. I am a life long vegetarian (and fussy). I also do slimming world which works a treat for me. The thing is, so much of my diet on slimming world is made up of potatoes, rice, pasta etc. I know that carbs play a big part in diabetes management and if I cut it out of my diet too much I am going to struggle for meals. I am attending the diabetic education classes starting next week and my slimming world leader is going to give me information on how to follow the plan as a diabetic. It is all very overwhelming right now. We want to try again for a baby as soon as we can due to my age and very irregular cycles. I don’t have years left, but I know that the Diabetes must be under control to give me the best chances of successful pregnancy. When we lost our boy everyone told me not to blame myself but since diagnosis I can’t help that feel I am to blame after all. I wasn’t aware I had a condition. I didn’t help myself too much before hand other than losing a couple of stone. I was still obese though. I can’t forgive myself if this condition killed my only baby after so long trying.