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Been to see new doctor today as my previous one had retired. In the last couple of years I have halved my smoking, lost 4 stones in weight & got my numbers down from regularly in the 30's to an average of 5.1. Doctor~how much do you smoke? Told him. Do you want a heart attack? Thought of asking if they were on special offer, but thought better of it. How much do you weigh? Don't know. He weighed me & said you haven't lost any weight since last time. Do you know what that means? Erm, I'm still fat? (my mirror tells me that). You are obese. Not thrilled with his attitude so far. Asked for repeat script for Glic & test strips. Yup, you've guessed. You can have the Glic but only 1 box of strips a month. How often do you test? 6~8 times a day usually. You only need to test last thing at night (in case you have a hypo!!) & only once a day. Erm, bit I'm on Glic so I need to test when I drive. Well don't test at night then!! At which point I picked up my script for strips & Glic, burst into tears & walked out.
So what has been the point of all I feel I have achieved? I suffer from OCD & if I can't test when I need to, can't see any point in testing at all. My bloods are in the 2's & 3's most days now (combination of lower carbs , Met & Glic), but he never asked what numbers I am getting. So really now don't want to take any meds, cos I can see me going into a coma & not recovering.
Been crying since I left surgery (don't even ask bout the receptionist & trying to book another appt). Where do I go from here. Just give up?
Thanks if you've managed to get to the end of this long, rambling saga
Smartie xx
So what has been the point of all I feel I have achieved? I suffer from OCD & if I can't test when I need to, can't see any point in testing at all. My bloods are in the 2's & 3's most days now (combination of lower carbs , Met & Glic), but he never asked what numbers I am getting. So really now don't want to take any meds, cos I can see me going into a coma & not recovering.
Been crying since I left surgery (don't even ask bout the receptionist & trying to book another appt). Where do I go from here. Just give up?
Thanks if you've managed to get to the end of this long, rambling saga
Smartie xx