Hey
@Kirstyo1 Welcome to the forum
Please trust me when I say that it gets a lot better, it's new and therefore everything requires extra brain power, thinking things through, making sure you have enough supplies, taken your injection, calculated the right bolus, this list goes on. In time a lot of this stuff will be second nature I promise.
Try and get over your embarrassment on testing and injecting in public, so just out and and do it, once you have done it then it will be liberating, box ticked and the embarrassment will fade, if anyone does notice then I would be amazed, people are not going to say anything.
My best advice is to be your own expert, talk to us, read up, find out as much as your brain can take, being an expert is key to good control and ultimately no one else can manage this as well as you can. In time if you feel a pump will help then go for it, your team would prefer if you do the DAFNE (dose adjustment for normal eating) course first, also that you are doing the best you can do on injections, so it is definately a possibility. Be prepared for anything also, blood glucose levels don't always play nicely and as you would expect so if they are not playing nicely speak to your team and learn why, it's a learning experience to see how your body reacts with stress, exercise, different foods, heat etc, als speak to us we are here to support, your not alone here