Hi
@ally1 . I don't really know you but I saw your post and felt I had to leave this note.
Your worth it!
This hitting out and self harming with chocolates etc.. is not for you.
It sounds like you've convinced yourself your not worth having a healthy carb free or/and cigs free life.
Sit back and ask yourself...can you see yourself thinner, happier and a non-smoker?
Ally you deserve to be happy. Whatever that happiness is for you.
Your beating yourself up about being a smoker but your torturing yourself when your the only one suffering.
Please please be kind to yourself. Stop depriving yourself so the carvings cannot take a hold of you.
Falll in love with yourself again. Your definitely worth it.
Be kind to yourself. Once you love who you are you will treat yourself properly. You know your worth it.
From what I can see as an outsider you are well loved, respected and a lovely person. Start treating yourself as you do others. Please.