You've never wanted to be able to concentrate on something for more than a couple of hours at a time?
No one can concentrate on something that long. Take a break. Relax your mind. It sounds like you have so much worry in there that I'm surprised you can concentrate on anything for a few minutes, never mind a few hours.
You've never wanted to just grab a snack because you're hungry, without it becoming a ten minute job involving numbers that are never right, and needles, and pain?
5 second job actually. That's literally how long it takes to me inject some insulin. I'm not even joking. It's that quick and easy. Oh, and if it hurts, try rotating your site, get a smaller needle or change your needle more often. I literally don't feel the needle going in, it's absolutely tiny. And I'm a person who hate needles!
You've never wanted to go to sleep without worrying how you'll feel when you wake up?
Huh? The only thing I worry about when I go to sleep is getting woken up by my 3 year old at 3am asking me to wipe the poo of his bum. My wife is not diabetic and I wake up in a much happier mood than she does. She''s a proper grouch in the morning.
You've never wanted to exercise or do physical work without having to do hours of planning that often you don't have enough warning to do anyway?
I ran cross country for my county whilst diabetic. I won the University of Manchester (great standard btw) footballer of the year in my first year. I was the captain of my football team whilst diabetic. I won every bleep test at school. I did not have to do any amount of hours of planning. Just get out there and be active, please!
You've never wanted to just go out with buddies and have a meal without knowing that you are the special case, you will be the centre of attention while you frown at menu after menu outside restaurant after restaurant and everyone is terribly terribly nice about it because it is so obvious how horrendous every last second of your life is?
LOL, what are you looking for on those menus exactly? I AM ALLOWED TO, AND DO EAT ANYTHING. Again, I LITERALLY EAT ANYTHING. Why don't you?
I feel sorry for my non-diabetic brother who is allergic to peanuts. The amount of times he has had to run into the toilets at a restaurant and PHYSICALLY FORCE HIMSELF TO THROW UP because he will die if he doesn't is crazy. Now he tends to just avoid most foods at restaurants, while I get to choose from anything. I feel absolutely sorry for him.
You've never wanted to not be hypo, when you are?
Yes I have. But what do I do about it? Thank god (i'm not religions, just a phrase) that I live in a 1st world country and have immediate access to tasty refined sugar. Then 3 minutes later when I feel better carry on with my life.
Of course you haven't, because it never even occurred to you that life shouldn't be like that. Well it did occur to me.
Life is like whatever you make it like. If it's rubbish, it's because you are making it rubbish. Can I recommend looking into the Stoic philosophy? Contrary to popular belief, it is a philosophy about being happy in life. It really might make you realise that everyone in life has problems. Different types of problems that impact their life in different ways. you can't impact a lot of this stuff, what you can impact is how YOU FEEL about it. You don't need to feel so bad about it, honestly, your life can be awesome. Diabetes is not stopping that, only you are.
If you want to DM me, I'd be more than happy to chat with you, see where you are at in life and maybe together we can help get you to a better place??
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