Hi, I'm not sure if you'll even see this because there are so many other amazing messages to read through in response to your post. But I started an account here just to message you! Oh so special my dear. I'm 28 and a new type 1, but I suspect I've been that type 1.5 (slow onset kind) for a few years. My teens and twenties have been largely weighed down by a deep and heavy depression, when darkness didn't hold me back, anxiety always managed to. Now I'm not sure how much of that low period was mental illness and how much of it was unmanaged diabetes. Since I've got my sugars under control my whole world is easy all of a sudden! For example, when I wake up in the morning, I just wake up and get up, it's not the 2 or 3 hour struggle it used to be, normal people don't know the luxuries they're afforded. Anxiety? **** it, I feel like I can do anything now. I've even started doing highschool courses so I can get into college, basically blah blah my life got awesome. Part of that is probably just because in time we learn how to deal with our heartaches, but a BIG boost is the new energy I have from decent health.
So your sugars are out of control and you don't want to deal with this **** anymore, fair enough. Maybe how you've been taught to manage your health is a ****** strategy for you. My doctors were not encouraging of my choice to eat low carb to minimize my insulin use, but it works so **** well! There is a forum on here about eating low carb, and lots of websites out there with recipes (google ketogenic diet). Instead of poking all day and injecting before every meal, I only inject my long acting insulin once a day, the rest of the time I'm not giving my body carbs it can't deal with so my sugars are always between 4.5-7. I thought maybe this diet was working so well because I'm a new diabetic, but I'm lucky enough to have a friend my age who has had type 1 for 25 years to experiment on. He also started eating low carb-high fat (don't worry eating fat doesn't actually make you fat) and for the first time in his life he doesn't need his fast acting insulin either. Our blood sugars are both always in the "normal human" range, I never need to worry about them and live a pretty normal life. I carry beef jerkey and olives and seaweed snacks on me and order salad with meat at restaurants and that's the major difference. Will you miss spaghetti? Try spaghetti squash! Don't want to give up cookies? Use coconut flour! There's a ton of options and I know it's overwhelming, but if you start with just one low-carb meal a day and work your way up, your life is about to get awesome. **** diabetes, take your life back.