And as you point out, it can be the most innocuous of situations that rattle us .
Weird how we don't have that anxiety until something unlocks the monsters in our thoughts.
Then it's all we can do to contain it & keep a lid in it.
( The thought came to me it's like an augmented reality.
A bit like the 'Pokemon GO' game that was in the news a few years back ....the world to everyone else seems normal.
But for the gamers that added overlay adds pokemon's running around....but for us it's filled with monsters. )
Acting normal despite all our senses screaming at us to do otherwise, can be very isolating.
I mean WHO can we tell, without worrying them ?
That's why I'm an advocate of writing it down, or using the friendship of forums like this, where letting someone know of our angst can be such a conduit for those that struggle.
The idea we are unaware of the struggles the person next to us might have, has now tempered my thinking when others act a little 'odd'
Because any one of us could be that person to someone else.
I get it, fella.
You got a hug, but it should have been a winner, you are wise beyond your years
@jjraak !
Where have I heard that before?
You are correct with acting normal, seeing your demons, and my fears are not the same as everyone else. My behaviour is different, as our my likes and dislikes.
Normal cannot be right of a norm or a standard of phobias, even kids with ADHT, should not be treated as abnormal. I accepted my body is abnormal. But not my behaviour when the circumstances, environmental, even age comes into it.
Since diagnosis of my RH, I have said that I'm weird it has been suggested that due to my weirdness that I'm not normal. But what is normal?
It was a bit of a giggle with my colleagues at work, before diagnosis, for yesrs, and it never bothered me.
I was told I was hypochondriac by friends, always at the doctors, some of them, just said T2 and waved me away.
So I get weird, I'm not normal and have never tried to be normal.
Up until my breakdown, I never knew what others with anxiety were going through and it was something I had not considered would happen to me. I never understood it, Worries were something to ignore or face or do something about. I was a problem solver in my working life.
6.3 this a.m.
How many sleeps now?
Took my feelings out on the kitchen this morning. It is near enough spotless now! (Ish)
Weather set and windy overnight, but just very windy and cold now, boy it's cold!
Tragedy! Next doors reindeer is in a heap on the corner of their garden! Shame!
Another fence has suffered the fate of a strong wind on the footie pitches, further down from ours.
Mrs L is having a lie in.
She woke up earlier, and heard me pottering about, clattering around and decided to stay in her pit. Tea duly obliged, and new patch on, snoring within minutes!
Day of monthly bills paid, phone calls and bit of bakers shopping done.
Curry for later sitting, steeping in fridge. Will put it on later!
My best wishes to you all as always.
And thanks again for support.
Since young, a wise old fool, once told me that faith, church, diety, saviour messenger, or whatever you wish to declare. Is inside you.
The ancient Egyptians believed once you died, you were a diety and be treated as such!
Socialism in religion, whatever next
@lindisfel ?