Thanks mate,
I have always been a well washed Mersey merman!
It's not my sanity, even though I am mad .............................................at the world.
My decision making, my problem solving, the understanding that I now second guess a lot of my thought processes. And I'm in an environment that I'm not suitable to cope with. I've lost my working life, now with Mrs L becoming increasingly more dependant on me. And I am losing the support and companionship, her inability to be presence. And the benefits of a loving partnership, that shared experience of marraige. It's the realisation that with her health issues, I am losing her as well. Losing what we have shared.
7.0 this morning.
I was a bad lad last night.
I could have eaten the fridge and I had one of Mrs L 's treats.
I am guilty!
I can't be hurting myself, I shouldn't, but I can't help it.
Comfort eating!
Gonna try and fast today as penance.
Gotta go, sorry for putting my feelings out there.
Shopling, more chores etc. Etc.
It's bloody freezing. No monkeys around!
I'm with the others.
If your comfortable & feel it's useful, then I'm more than happy to see you post how you feel.
My dad had similar with mum.
I saw how he tried to make light of what was clearly killing him.
I think dad kept a lot in, looking back...I wish he had had some outlet like this.
We all did what we could, but I'm pretty sure he held a lot back to protect the rest of the family.
Would have been nice to think he might have laid some of that heavy burden down, among similar folks to ourselves, without the worry he'd upset those closest to him.
What you say, is pretty much what he said.
Heartbreaking to hear it then, heartbreaking to hear it happening to someone else.
I don't have the words to make, what is clearly a hard road to travel, much easier, though I wish I did
@Lamont D
I just hope some of the camaraderie on here, helps lighten a hard day, just that little bit .
And the unburdening when you feel able, affords you some badly needed relief, and the chance of a little second wind, to help you through the day .
Take care.