you know you're a type 1 diabetic wheneveryday you wish as though you could go back to that day before you were diagnosed, to that day when you could eat whatever you wanted, whenever you wanted; when you didn't have to think twice about nipping out; when you didn't need to worry about going to the doctors or the hospital regularly; when people didn't ask what you were doing when you stick that needle in yourself; when you didn't have people assuming that because you stick 4 needles in yourself everyday, that you just become used to it (you can NEVER get used to sticking needles in yourself when that memory of a better day still persists); when you didn't have to apply for special forms just to drive; when you didn't have to learn how to carb count; when you could go for a bike ride in the sunshine without worrying what your bloods are doing; when you didn't have a care in the world and you felt as though you could conquer anything and that diabetes was not conquering you - when you felt as though you had control of your life, and not some disgusting disease controlling you.
I am clearly bitter about all this. I miss pre-diabetes life. All I can say is that I am lucky to have lived 16 years without it - 16 years of content, carefree life. And sometimes, just sometimes, I can see how being a diabetic has it's upshots too. I just hope that people with diet influenced diabetes are able to stop themselves falling to the point of insulin dependant - food may be good, exercise may be a pain, but trust me, insulin dependance is not fun for you and it's not fun on the people around you..