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What was your fasting blood glucose? (full on chat)

@gennepher thank you for writing about your art and your implant. What you experienced is amazingly similar to what I have experienced since being on an SSRI (just over a year now). The SSRI has helped a lot with panic disorder (which has a physical cause) but it has taken away just about all of my creativity. I am a writer, but I have written very little in the past year. The effect the SSRIs have had on my brain has apparently blocked the panic receptors but has also blocked the creativity cells. And it has been a whole year, not just a week or two.

I am trying to deal with a huge decision these days -- to move, or not to move? -- and I find I'm not even able to journal about it. Steam-of-consciousness writing seems too much of an effort to attempt -- or maybe it's more like I feel I just can't be bothered. The SSRI that enables me to go more places and do more things without panic also gives me a feeling of "So what?" about many other things, even things that used not to worry me but helped make life "good."

I remember the story of the blind man that Jesus healed. At first the man could see, but the people he saw looked like trees walking. So Jesus placed His hands on the man's eyes again, and this time the man could see everything clearly. It took a couple of moments, but Jesus didn't say "Try it for a couple of weeks and then get back to Me." ! :)

I did try the new glasses again later this morning after I woke up from a nap with the KittenCat. This time I tried seeing through the bifocal part. I tried to read, and the lines of print looked as if I were viewing them through water. All wavery. And in order to see through the top part of the lenses I have to put the glasses so far down my nose that they are uncomfortable.

I'm guessing that what you call varifocal lenses may be the same thing as progressives. Just different terminology. :)

I am very very sorry your creativity is affected with the SSRI.

I know how important creativity is to me. I was a few years completely lost because of having the first speech processor on all the time, as i was told to by audiology. I didn't realise all I had to do was go back to the old way of doing things which I'd had naturally all my life, which was no incoming sound. But it is not quite as simple as that.

With the speech processor, when I first put it on in the morning all I hear is a terrible distortion for an hour or so, which is why I don't want to put it on in a morning because it is not pleasant, and then the noise becomes less discordant. The hospital explained this will always be like this because my brain has to each day get used to this noise because I have had no incoming sound at night.

Once the cochlear speech processor goes off in the evening, sometimes I turn it off as early as 6pm because my brain needs time to settle before sleep (audiology told me to do this because of my bad tinnitus which returns with a vengeance once the processor is turned off, and to give brain time to settle before sleep).

It took me a long time (a few years) to realise that my creativity starts to cone back to me a few hours later with no incoming sound. So often around midnight i wake anyway, and I realised my brain is writing poetry and words are coming to me to write. Stream-of=consciousness writing works very well then, as well as poetry. I write quite often at that time now. Also, I often wake by 4 or 5 am, and this is also often when i do my painting or printing now. I will work until about 7 or 8 am. But I haven't got my speech cochlear processor in yet.

If i don't put the speech processor in at all that day, I can continue to be creative and paint all day. And that is amazing when i do that.

But I have a problem because this cochlear speech processor has a complex collecting program which stores data, and which the hospital can access on their computers, and it tells them how many hours a day I have this speech processor on, and whether music is on or if speech is incoming (it has a complex scanning program), and it tells them how often i have taken it off in a day....

And me telling audiology I need to have it off when I am being creative doesn't wash with them. They don't understand.

But what I am thinking for you, is there any strategies you can come up with to becoming writing or journaling again?
You know you better than you think.
Take care
>^..^<

P.S. I think you might need to have a word with the optician about your glasses. They don’t make them up, but they go to a technician, and it is possible the technician made a mistake.

P.P.S. Your Jesus story made me smile :)
 
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In search of some data really but IMHO very much tied up with this thread. How many of you good folk a) plan your menu each day and b) if you do is it based on carb count or using a tool/app to analyse vitamins, nutrients, cals in and out or c) just what you like to eat that is LC? Is there a poll tool on this forum as I would be very interested in this data. TIA and please feel free to ignore me.
a) I mainly hunt and gather and forage each day -
b & c) just based upon what I fancy and considering the carb loading. I also check blood sugars before meals and adjust. Eating to the meter and not having too many carbs will work for most if they have the fortitude.
 
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I may not say this properly but I'll try --

I really admire you getting out and riding your bike all over the countryside. Especially while dealing with having to check BG numbers to assure they are OK for you to continue riding. And you seem to enjoy the travel.

I have panic disorder caused mostly by a central nervous system dysautonomia and while I love to get out and travel with a friend I absolutely hate doing it alone. I wish it were a matter of me just having to check numbers and eat something and then I would feel fine again and could get back on the road.

I hope you keep on getting to do this and have a wonderful time doing it -- and keep eating whatever it takes to do it! :)

Oh, but I do panic and suffer from indecision, but at a certain level the " oh just get on with it mode kicks in " I have an attitude which is " life is for living just get out and live ". I just role with the punches and a naughty sense of humour hehehe.
Thanks for the best wishes, stay well.
 
I am glad it was of some help.

A bit blurry. A little bit of headache on right side.
Yet everything is also in more detail (I was told it wouldn't improve my sight as such, it was just for pressure).
I have to hold my phone and tablet at a different angle to read, bit awkward.
I have ghosting of images (or will that settle? Or will my brain learn to ignore it?)
Also intense glare depending on shininess, is like a white sun with radiating lines. Weird.
None of this is dealt with in leaflet I have from hospital.

Questions questions, so, I will be googling today to see what others experienced from this same procedure. I do have appointment in 6 weeks time, and if I am still bothered on Monday I will be asking for an appointment with my optometrist to see what he says.

A coffee with cinnamon and cream is now called for, and a wee bit more dark chocolate.

Have a good day.

>^.^<

I will bet that your visual symptoms aren't unique to you. I'll bet you find people out there who've had stranger "visions". Hildegard had visions or the kind they usually mean. So play some Hildegard and celebrate sisterhood down the centuries
I do really hope and pray that everything settles down very quickly for you!
 
I will bet that your visual symptoms aren't unique to you. I'll bet you find people out there who've had stranger "visions". Hildegard had visions or the kind they usually mean. So play some Hildegard and celebrate sisterhood down the centuries
I do really hope and pray that everything settles down very quickly for you!

Thank you very much.
I will :)
Thanks
>^..^<
 
What all the replies to Ian have proved is there really is “no size fits all” then add on changes that crop up and it really is a mystery tour. But we are all here doing our best and trying to support each other.

Yes, and that is the best part of this board, to me.

I am watching racing at Pimlico (Maryland) today, waiting for the Preakness Stakes, and I just saw one of the most appropriate horse names I have ever seen. Among such names as Homeland Security, Peach Of A Gal, and Day the Music Died, is the always fitting (even for a pampered race horse) Dirtyfoot.
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Years ago I changed from eating 3 meals a day to eating smaller snack-meals every 2-3 hours. It certainly didn't take weight off! but then I have the kind of metabolism that makes me put on weight if I so much as look at a loaf of homemade bread. :)

I don’t think there is such a thing as a slice of homemade bread is there? Has to be the whole loaf
 
Our Cup Overfloweth. Blue Moon is at its zenith. Can this be real, after all the years of failure and decline? Pinch me now!

BG 8.0 mmo/lt at 1600. Going cold turkey from Monday, LCHF and no booze (if I can, did dry January) Watch this space.
 
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Good morning from the Eastern hemisphere....

6.5 on the meter this morning around 5.00 AM. A bit higher than what I would like but not too unhappy, considering last night’s dinner - A burger (!!). Well, it was a small bun and whole-wheat and the patty was mashed chickpeas and vegetables. No potatoes!!!. Side of salad and later i had blueberries with yogurt.

Oh and a small (really small) amount of the wine left over from last week, which is anyway too sweet for my liking.

So... well it was definitely on the moderately-carb-heavy side but my numbers were within the doctor recommended range, if not my wishful range!!

And yesterday’s gym did make me a bit hungrier than usual and i must increase my intake as i want to gain a few pounds. So, overall not too bad a Saturday.

Sunday is here... bright... shiny... As i am a bit late, i can hear some traffic. So a walk in the neighborhood would probably have been 90CA8A30-1086-4C50-B105-4C6373DE4018.jpgnice but with the traffic starting i am thinking of just lazing around the garden till breakfast is done. Probably post breakfast walk to nearby convenience store to pick up a few essentials.

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Grrrrr. Mr ZF had routine "welcome to Medicare" labs that he just got results for. He eats a big bowl of cereal with a banana, and some orange juice, for breakfast, and he was just going in to renew Rx. This was drawn first thing after that. Care to guess his BG? 4 point frikkin 6. His family are PERFECT! His mother, for example, smoked heavily for at least 75 years, and all she got was COPD. I'm so jealous!
 
Okay...this is my best answer, and how to explain this. By analogy because I understand this as regard my cochlear implant.

With getting the cochlear implant some years ago, the hospital were not sure if I could benefit because I was profoundly deaf and have been so all my life, and so the thought was, that the pathways that were set aside by the body for aural stuff would have atrophied through lack of use. But more recently, the thought is that those pathways that were originally thought to have atrophied through lack of use, were actually taken over by the brain for another use. But they were not sure, and the cochlear implant could have been a failure.

However in my case, those neural pathways appear to have been taken over by visual and creative stuff by the brain. I didn't realise or understand that until after I'd had the cochlear op. Neither did the hospital.

It also means that I am now unable to do my art, painting, creative writing since the cochlear op and with wearing the speech processor. I was so upset, i thought I had lost all my creativity which was a massive tota; part of my life. It nearly sent me over the edge. A few years later the hospital said keep persevering because the brain will sort it.

Then one morning i got up early and said *** the processor, I am going to try and paint and create without having the processor and incoming noise on. Bliss, absolute bliss. I could now write and paint again. So, all my creativity can only be done with no incoming noise, and my brain seems to be at peace when I do this. Since then, anything creative I want to do, then I take the processor off. The problem with the speech processor being on is that my brain is constantly searching for figuring out what a noise is, and it is probably never going to get there, because it doesn't have a baseline that a baby has learnt in its early years...and I am nearly 70 years old now.

Maybe you cannot teach an old dog new tricks?

So, what appears to be happening with me, is that the neural pathways for aural stuff was combined with other creative neural pathways (?Is it sight because i am a very visual person?), and was the reason for my creativity. But now i have the cochlear implant, the aural side of things wants those pathways back. And becasue so much is needed for me to try and understand sound, I am unable to do the creative bit. Maybe the brain is grabbing more neural pathways to process incoming sound because it is a mammoth task for it. Maybe the neural pathways can be dual purpose, which i am coming to believe might be possible.

I haven't put my speech processor on yet this morning, (oops, its now 1pm in the afternoon!) because i needed to do writing, research about this laser treatment etc, and I cannot do that at all and take it in along with incoming sound as well.

This is all to do with plasticity of the brain, neural plasticity, neuroelasticity. These are different search terms you can use to google this. It is about the ability of the brain to change continuously over a person's life. It is how we learn new skills.

I have read so many books on this subject to try and understand my brain because of this. Obviously the subject was of greater interest to me.

This applies to sight as well.

So, you getting your eyes checked on the vision thingy and glasses prescribed on the basis of that, is not quite cut and dried as that with seeing just as well once you put the glasses on. I am aware of the same feeling. But we need to adjust, or rather our brains do. That is of course assuming the technician or optician got the glasses prescription right in the first place, and of course go back and say what your problem is with the glasses.

I have no idea what trifocals are.
I used to have long distance, and also reading glasses years ago. Then i went on to bifocals you say you have got. Then i went on to varifocals. (I am not sure if i have spelt that quite right). But it means i wear one pair of glasses, but there isn't that distinction line between the bottom half of the bi vocals and the top half. It can be disconcerting as your brain gets used to it. (I have to pay extra to get the varifocals, its not covered with the voucher here either).

I have all my old glasses too, and the frames to me are bigger and enable you to see better, otherwise with the smaller frames I am moving my head and searching for what i want to see!

I will be getting them out as well, because i am having problems with these varifocals today after the procedure yesterday, and i don't know yet if brain needs to adapt, or if they are not as suitable since the laser treatment.

So research plasticity etc. I will be researching later as well as regards sight and laser treatment.
If you need something on this and you can't find it, let me know and I will look for something that might explain it as regards glasses and sight.

The brain is very adaptable and nothing is black and white on this.

Hope this helps.

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The part about not doing creative and writing/reading with sound incoming is actually reasonably common in hearing folk. It can have to do with learning disabilities, or learning styles, and is a processing thing for us also. I could never study with music/conversation nearby. I don't do painting, but I used to sew lots of my clothes, and preferred silence or birds/wind in trees if there had to be noise. No human distraction. Oddly, when I had an oboist housemate who would make reeds and practise her music after we got home from work at 10:30, I learned to go to sleep not minding that. If anybody's ever heard an oboe player working on reeds, you know how annoying that is. Reading in an airport? Nope. Typing this while hubby listens softly to a ballgame in a different room, not easy! All our brains are different and wonderful!
 
Interesting experiment, part of a longer study to be made: waited until mid afternoon for chocolate. Had 2 sq 90% and nought (naught? We don't use those words, please advise) else for lunch, and immediately went for a fast 3 mile walk which involved personal bests and sweat. BG dropped from 5.8 to 5.3. 2 hr after breakfast (normal usual but no choc) it had been 6.8. Test 1 positive results! Now to arrange a 3 mile walk every afternoon. Impossible: in a month's time it will be unbearably hot during the day, and my personal limit is 80F. Well, I guess I'll just have to see what happens if I don't exercise after the chocolate, riiiiiight?
I would say nothing else for lunch.
 
Morning all. A not wholly surprising 6.2 today. I woke up at 2 am and couldn't get back to sleep. Unsurprisingly I'm feeling quite groggy now. I've got a very tedious day ahead : I dropped my phone down the loo last night ( during the flush, but it was only a wee thank heavens) I bounced it straight in a bag of dry rice as the screen went funny immediately, but it would appear dead as a dodo still. Very annoyed with myself. So phone calls to insurance co and a trip to the phone shop on the cards ( better not mention the not quite finished flush). So frustrating I have all my passwords on it, appointments Tec not to mention DCUK app which I always use. Luckily I remembered an old kindle fire in the drawer so was able to fire it up and log in longhand. I'm not used to doing it this way through so not sure how to navigate my way around. It took me ages to find this thread. I've no idea how to see notifications or tags either.
@PenguinMum great fbg there. I need to know which gin it was?
I've got that t shirt. Nightmare. Losing all your info. And photos? Hope you get sorted soon.
 
The part about not doing creative and writing/reading with sound incoming is actually reasonably common in hearing folk. It can have to do with learning disabilities, or learning styles, and is a processing thing for us also. I could never study with music/conversation nearby. I don't do painting, but I used to sew lots of my clothes, and preferred silence or birds/wind in trees if there had to be noise. No human distraction. Oddly, when I had an oboist housemate who would make reeds and practise her music after we got home from work at 10:30, I learned to go to sleep not minding that. If anybody's ever heard an oboe player working on reeds, you know how annoying that is. Reading in an airport? Nope. Typing this while hubby listens softly to a ballgame in a different room, not easy! All our brains are different and wonderful!

I can't write or do other work to music either, or to other human-made noise. One thing I love about my apartment is that sometimes it is so quiet here that I can practically hear the silence. It can never be too quiet for me. However, when the KittenCat is snoring, as now, I find that very companionable to hear.

Unfortunately I did not play bassoon long enough to learn to make my own reeds.

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