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gennepher said:
You have been the best carer possible for Mrs L @Lamont D
So, don't think anything different. You have been through a heck of a relentless day.

Don't forget always write on here. We will always read.

Writing is going to help you, but it is always a black&white record of what happened in a particular day. And it is something you may need to refer back to at a later time xx
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gennepher said:
You have been the best carer possible for Mrs L @Lamont D
So, don't think anything different. You have been through a heck of a relentless day.

Don't forget always write on here. We will always read.

Writing is going to help you, but it is always a black&white record of what happened in a particular day. And it is something you may need to refer back to at a later time xx
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Thank you for your comments.

I have now at last got my feet up, writing this. Catching up with the sport etc.
It is a prop for me to write here.
I shouldn't burden anyone else with my faults, anxiety and coping with it all.
It's not any one else's responsibility but mine and of course Mrs L 's.
And I appreciate the support.

Just a really bad day.

Tomorrow will be better.

Please enjoy your weekend.
Mrs L is resting upstairs.
 
Lamont D said:
Thanks, I am totally stressed, angry, so frustrated, so ******.
And I have heard about it all before.
It has been since I got up, a very bad experience today.
A really bad one.
Mrs L was up before me at 3.30. But I got her back in bed. She thought it was mid afternoon.
I got up at 6.30 and Mrs L had got herself a cuppa. I think that is how I woke up.
I made a fresh one but that meant no rybelsus for her.
Then as I gave her, her other meds.
She insisted on getting the meat for Chrimbo meat out to defrost.
Gammon for Chrimbo eve, Turkey for Chrimbo day. Beef for boxing day.
She also wanted the duck out for pops.
Wondering where it all was?
After straightening that out by showing her the amnesiac clock.
I had to straighten the freezer, before ablutions and usual chores first thing.
Then Mrs L wanted to go shopping at 7.30 am.!!!!
However, she had a short nap after another cuppa.
Woke up, went to go out the freezer, but thankfully I managed to persuade her otherwise.
An hour or so later, I told her I was off to the shop.
Went through the questions and asked if Mrs L wanted to go over with her shopping walker?
No!
On the way back with the shopping, Mrs L was waiting for me just outside the garden gates.
We went back the shop, and I think I lost it and am still recovering, whilst also being there to help her with the usual stuff, and I feel I have been a bad carer for her.
My anger, my frustration, with her obsession like conversation over chrimbo and food and anything that can be so hard for me to try and be reasonable with it all.
And of course, Mrs L remembers nothing about the shop, the traffic, the meat, chrimbo and such.
Which is frustrating in itself.

I know why it has become like this...
Mrs L doesn't want Christmas to be here, and it is causing extreme anxiety, and even though, Mrs L knows I do the majority of things, Mrs L believes that she has to help with it all.
Her father died nearly three years ago on boxing day.
And Mrs L has never got over it.

I'm sorry about it all, as usual, and that is why, I'm writing this.

My best wishes to you lot as always.
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It's hard to cope with someone so deeply affected by dementia as Mrs L is. Not only problematic but hurtful. We doubt ourselves and the quality of our care, but should remind ourselves that we are providing the love and support that poor soul needs and, in fact, depends upon. It is frustrating. It is painful. It is soul-destroying. Anger is almost inevitable at some times. I don't go much on mugs with messages on them but my DIL bought me a mug with the inscription "I have one nerve left, and you're getting on it!" Almost true. I used to think I had no nerves left at all and was dying inside myself. Worst thing was when Tom reached the point of not recognising me and deliberately turning away from any help I tried to offer, effectively shunning me after 50+ years together. Luckily he accepted help from Neil (not sure he knew who Neil was, but N has an authoritative manner, which his father accepted) and he did seem to recognise Em right to the end.

Please, keep letting off steam here - we are all your friends and have broad shoulders. It will be some help, having that outlet and I'm sure we all want to help you in some small way, even though we can't be there physically to assist.
 
Lamont D said:
Thank you for your comments.

I have now at last got my feet up, writing this. Catching up with the sport etc.
It is a prop for me to write here.
I shouldn't burden anyone else with my faults, anxiety and coping with it all.
It's not any one else's responsibility but mine and of course Mrs L 's.
And I appreciate the support.

Just a really bad day.

Tomorrow will be better.

Please enjoy your weekend.
Mrs L is resting upstairs.
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You are not burdening anyone on here @Lamont D
It is a release for you, gives you a record of your feelings and emotions and events at the time. In addition it gives others an insight of life with someone with Mrs L's problems.
Keep writing....
 
Good Morening Ladies and Gentlemen.
@Lamont D in my opinion you are doing an outstanding job, life has thrown you a curved ball and you are playing it wonderfully.
Stress of any sort will raise your blood sugars.

At this moment in time my blood sugars are all over the place, this morning they were 7.3
I blame my new medication and hospital treatment, of course it’s nothing to do the high energy foods I am eating to counter the fatigue I am undergoing at the moment. ;-)

Stay safe all
 
alf_Josiah said:
Good Morening Ladies and Gentlemen.
@Lamont D in my opinion you are doing an outstanding job, life has thrown you a curved ball and you are playing it wonderfully.
Stress of any sort will raise your blood sugars.

At this moment in time my blood sugars are all over the place, this morning they were 7.3
I blame my new medication and hospital treatment, of course it’s nothing to do the high energy foods I am eating to counter the fatigue I am undergoing at the moment. ;-)

Stay safe all
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I hope you are enjoying those high energy foods you are needing to eat to counteract the fatigue you are going through at the moment @alf_Josiah
 
Fbg 7.1

High because of the stress of that iPad Pro yesterday.

It is still charging at the rate of 1 % every 3 to 4 hours (something like that). And it has got back up to 25 % again. So, about 40 plus hours has got it to 25% Or something ridiculous. I am not strong at maths, but given this has an unknown unpredictability, lets say this might get to 50% in the next few days. Then I might be able to tick a few precious photos in its archives and email them to myself. It won't allow me to connect up to airdrop. The battery goes down too quickly for me to even to set up to send it to the cloud, let alone send. I might be able to choose and send maybe 4 or 5 photos at a time by email. That is the last plan I have as regards my photos.

Depends how long the battery holds before it descends faster than a faulty lift in a horror movie. This may get me a few precious photos. I can only try. How long the IPad Pro will hold out doing this before the battery dies completely, I don't know.

But I have been doing some stuff remotely on some apps, in that iPad Pro, in it which was important stuff, and I granted them more permissions than I did on other apps, and while it is possible I needed to ungrant those permissions, and some other stuff before I delete everything on that iPad. If I don't and just delete the content and apps of the iPad Pro as a whole, then I won't be able to access my content again (it is my content) because it will have been granted specifically to an app on a device I won't be able to access any more...it was device specific.

And I am now able to open that app up on iPad Mini, this device and access my content. It is a bit time consuming. I am racking my brains to remember if there is anything else I might be wise to do remotely...before the iPad Pro gives up the will to live...



I have been sorting out my collection of usb leads for charging/running different devices. And I took a photo of the leads for my Creative today. And while I am creating kaleidoscopes in Kaleider, a large black cat is doing his best to squeeze into the small box that housed all these leads...oh he got in and was pleased with himself, but it was a cheap Amazon box, and it burst at the corners....

So this kaleidoscope is from those usb leads.

I keep falling asleep here, the air is too still. It is far too hot. I just went to the kitchen window, and the man over the road has all his windows wide open and the front door open...so he & his wife are feeling it too...I need a shower and a change of clothes...Midnight and all the stray cats have disappeared to cooler climes, aka the woods at the back of me. He disappeared for 2 days last time. The only plus is that he is slimmer than he has ever been. He is not a hunting cat, so comes back hungry. All the other strays are hunting cats. He still has the weight to lose. So he is okay.

I need a fresh flask of tea...

Have your best kind of day.

Take care.

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Annb said:
It's hard to cope with someone so deeply affected by dementia as Mrs L is. Not only problematic but hurtful. We doubt ourselves and the quality of our care, but should remind ourselves that we are providing the love and support that poor soul needs and, in fact, depends upon. It is frustrating. It is painful. It is soul-destroying. Anger is almost inevitable at some times. I don't go much on mugs with messages on them but my DIL bought me a mug with the inscription "I have one nerve left, and you're getting on it!" Almost true. I used to think I had no nerves left at all and was dying inside myself. Worst thing was when Tom reached the point of not recognising me and deliberately turning away from any help I tried to offer, effectively shunning me after 50+ years together. Luckily he accepted help from Neil (not sure he knew who Neil was, but N has an authoritative manner, which his father accepted) and he did seem to recognise Em right to the end.

Please, keep letting off steam here - we are all your friends and have broad shoulders. It will be some help, having that outlet and I'm sure we all want to help you in some small way, even though we can't be there physically to assist.
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Thanks @Annb
I really appreciate that.
I have been around elderly relatives before, and I thought I had prepared for it, and done sonmething as much as I could. But I never believed the mental anguish the mental strain and pains of having to get through the unrealistic statements or outright untruths, that Mrs L believes is true.
And how out of step of reality she is.
It is very similar to an alternative reality her mindset is in.

Other than saying words that perceive the circumstances, the next sentence is on a completely different issue or a question of if and maybe. When, where, how?

At times Mrs L can be so confused, disoriented, unreasonable with it.

But at the heart of it, it is the forgetfulness, the misremembering, the lack of concentration, which is in part the depression, anxiety, pain meds and grief that Mrs L has suffered with.
The resistance has gone to life, I feel sometimes. Mrs L doesn't live, she exists.
It is horrible, but I accept that is her way of coping.
So, in turn, I have to cope.
We have always looked after each other.
I won't stop ever, or as long as I'm able to do so.
Thanks again.
 
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