I thought I would write a line.
I am okay but in a horrendous situation.
Mrs L. In an attempt to be healthy as possible, has been in a mental state of serious concern.
Everyone especially her mental health nurse has been excellent. But it is taking time.
I have been told I need respite.
Mrs L needs hospitalisation for a consistent basis of supervision for her mental state of extraordinary mood swings. And a complete rethinking of how her life can be changed. She has become a danger to herself and her family.
Finally. Social services are concerned about myself.
We have become desperate although I can ring a helpline or the doctors who again have been brilliant.
I am a prisoner to my wife's mental illness.
I really do hope and wish, you lot and your families are as healthy as is possible. My bestest wishes for each and everyone. I will be around but I may not be conversational. I don't have the time to read everything.
So I apologise, if you have been concerned for Mrs L and myself. This will get sorted one way or another.
I will try and update.
I do miss this thread.
And that is a line?
Best wishes.
Lamont.
I wish I had the words to make this more bearable for you all.
if life is a journey, at this part it's like a sea voyage with a brewing storm.
You can't face into the wind in a storm like this.
And sailing back to yesterday isn't possible, sadly.
Best you can all do is find a safe harbour for you both.
For Mrs L that is getting the best help & advice that those more knowledgeable can provide & offer.
AND
For you, despite herculean efforts ... ( Yes I know, it's just what you do, it's what everyone does ,..blah blah blah )
You just have to accept YOU making those efforts day after day IS NOT normal nor something anyone can sustain endlessly.
SO getting the help YOU need IS part of the help Mrs L needs too.
Without you she is like a queen with no knights.
And you have been and are her knight.
Take the rest where & if offered .
God bless You both.
It's very unfair the journey being asked of you.
I can only say, being up close and personal with this wicked disease.
As hard as it is,
Know that each & every day you can look back, hold your head up and say of it proudly "I did all that was humanly possible of me"
frankly mate, I'm in awe of how resilient you are.
Prayers & best wishes.