Fbg 6.2
Another page in my sketchbook...
Painted in acrylics, pastel and a white gel pen.
Today did not go as planned at all...
A very frustrating day. I've got no work done in my bedroom.
I was going to treat myself to a breakfast this morning, but all the traffic on the main road at the bottom was a gridlock so that put paid to that and so I just went to Tesco's and had to pay high prices then I would've done this morning. I had no desire to sit in a traffic queue.
But as I was walking to Tesco from the car, I was pushing my wheelie, when suddenly a hand clapped itself in the middle of my back quite hard... I turned around and there was a tall man in what looked like a builders jacket. And he said to me, "I was asking you if you were alright." I had never seen him before and as far as I can tell I wasn't looking in need of any help. I was just walking to Tesco's. I haven't done my shopping yet.... he said some other stuff I could not make out what he said so I just said I'm fine, thank you. But it shook me that somebody would do that....
So when I get home, I was a bit out of sorts because that was a shock to my system and I went to bed and went to sleep for a few hours.
I woke up to a text from the doctor's surgery, from the diabetic nurse saying that she wanted me to come in a week early, that was this week and could I confirm?... well it is a Noreply text so how the heck can I confirm that I am coming in to this change of date. There is no email to this surgery., and I was not going out this afternoon or indeed tomorrow to the surgery saying I can make it for Thursday. So I wrote a letter saying she give me no options to reply to her. She had not given me a reply route., and so I was sending a letter as the best alternative...the post box is just round the corner...
Then in the mail was another one of those government CDs which the government persist on sending me even though I've told them I cannot hear the words on them. I've tried many routes to the government, explaining I am deaf and I need either a transcript to the CD or I need the normal type letter which gives you information. It was the lady from Council, last year I think, when I asked her if she could tell me what was on the CD and she said she could not because that was confidential information for me. Well, it is so confidential it stays on the blooming CD hidden away from its intended recipient, and I have no idea what it is.... but the lady from the counter told me that the government has to pay for all the letters it sends out to all of us people, but if it's a disability thing like for someone who's blind or other stuff because they send it by alternate means that is this CD to a blind person, then all this goes free for The government, and they don't have to pay for any of this...
And that wasn't the end of complications for my day...
I went to my bank app to pay for a credit card statement... and in this section it's only entries I've made personally for people I pay money to. Well, there was an extra entry and I'm thinking, but I never made that entry.... but it worries me. I could've just deleted it because in this section I have to make the payment each time for anything.... so I went to the section that would allow me to delete it. But it refused to be deleted.. I close down the app and left it a bit and tried again but it still won't be deleted so here is me going onto that stupid infernal chat bot it which doesn't even have the brains of a rock. I told it to get a real person for me.... again I had to wait more than the 30 minutes before anyone replied and again it was a bit of a tortuous conversation with a longer gap in between each message before I got a reply.... they could not tell me why this entry had been made, but they deleted it from their end. However, I think it is when the banks went down and when everything came back up again, some things were done wrongly while everything was trying to restore....
That still was not the end of all the problems of my day... I did mention about a week ago only half of an Amazon parcel arrived. Two of the items were missing (two shirts).... but when I went into the Amazon stuff, it would not let me complain about it or ask for a refund refund or even report what happened. Because it was all insisting that it had been delivered... but it had not, and I was getting Amazon telling me oh look in your back go and knock on the neighbours door. But that didn't help me when it's half the parcel that is missing and I have only received one half... I tried every day, but I got nowhere and I was in that infernal loop of bot messages. Finally something came up but it had not been dispatched, but it still had no separate tracking number to the stuff that says it has been delivered.. Finally I went onto ChatGPT and asked for help how to deal with it... he went through all the options...I said I had done them all so then he gave me an email address, and dictated me a letter to write which explained everything and that's what I have just done, but the whole thing took about four hours. So as you can see, I have not been able to achieve anything in my bedroom today and I am totally fed up with everything.... I just feel like saying why flipping bother....
So hopefully I will get a reply from my email to Amazon within 24 hours. There was no automatic response to say that they had received that email.
So I've done nothing today that is useful, but you could say all that was useful that I've done, but it's all Internet computer stuff, mismanaged computer stuff, mismanaged Internet stuff, and inefficient systems... and I have had to navigate all that...
I am listening to Hildegard's Voices of Angels to try and calm down. I presume it is in Latin and so consequently my brain can make no sense of it and so it doesn't try to work out the words. And this allows my brain to relax and quieten down. I can't listen to the songs on here that have music attached to them, because my brain is trying to make sense of the music and it makes sense of music in inappropriate ways which is not relaxing at all, for example the first one in the celestial whatever it was all I could hear was wasps... my brain interpreted that music as wasps. The Cochlear implant is not particularly designed for music.... but the voices in a language I do not know, my brain can just rest, all the neural pathways can just rest... but I cannot keep the Cochlear sound processor on overnight... apparently it is dangerous and can cause an overload in the brain... I am streaming these voices directly into my brain... so I cannot hear any outside noise... at the moment I would love to keep this on all night in my sleep... but I can't....
Night night from me...
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