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[Paul Janowski PhD]

Hello,

I've been type 2 for about two years but in the typical man way I've just 'got on' with it while I now realise in hindsight I have just been getting progressively worse.

My problems started 6 years ago when my thyroid stopped working and it took doctors what seem like a long time to find out what was the matter with me. I was getting physically weak and going out of my mind with worry.

I finished up unconscious at a lecture in Oxford. Students attending the lecture thought I kicked the bucket others thought it was some sort of stunt. I was rushed to hospital suffering from multiple organ failure and after some flapping about a overseas doctor working at the hospital suggested having my thyriod tested.

It took months to find the right balance of drugs to treat the problem and I'll have to take the pills for life. Then two years ago I became type 2, even more pills for the rest of my life.

I take so many pills, I feel like an old woman. Even my mother, who was a hypochondriac before really becoming ill, didn't take as many as I do.

I left my work early yesterday citing tiredness and phoned in for work sick again this morning. Some days I just can't conjure myself out of bed in the mornings. I procrastinate and dilly-daddling awful lot. I don't know if this due to the pills my illnesses or depression. I do feel that the diabetes along with my thyriod problems has cemented my feet permanently in the grave.

I taken to drink which is not helping. I wash all my medication down with a stiff drink. I could also be finding myself out of employment with the amount of time I'm taking off, so at the time of writing this I'm currently in a bad place.

Hopefully I can find advice from this forum to help me, sorry for the down beat introduction I can't sleep and feeling *****.


Paul Janowski PhD

 

[NoCrbs4Me]

Maybe too much personal information - I wouldn't use my full name and include the name of the university where I work if I were you. Just saying. The high blood sugar should be manageable through a low carb diet, drugs, and/or insulin. This forum could provide a lot of help for you in that regard.

 

[Paul Janowski PhD]

Maybe too much personal information - I wouldn't use my full name and include the name of the university where I work if I were you. Just saying. The high blood sugar should be manageable through a low carb diet, drugs, and/or insulin. This forum could provide a lot of help for you in that regard.

Thanks for the concern NoCrbs4Me but I ceased caring what people know about me. Anyhow there is nothing that I wrote that work colleagues don't already know. I know I'm going to lose my job at the University but I have my shop to fall back on that will keep me afloat until I got my problems sorted. University work was just supplementing my income. I have minimal contact with my family that live in Poland so what they find out, I've also ceased caring about.

But thanks again for the concern NoCrbs4Me.

Paul Janowski PhD

 

[izzzi]

Hi Paul,
Depression is treatable, you of all people must know how to receive professional doctoring.
You have a responsibility to your body and only you can decide what is best.
It is also very concerning that professional people like yourself can go through what is a very serious illness.

Thanks for sharing for what you are going through. I only hope you will pull through, learn many lessons from this bad experience and help many other people in the future that suffer from this type of sickness.

 

[Harpar]

I agree with @NoCrbs4Me , rather too much personal info, but that is your choice. Sorry to hear that you are at a low. Thyroid issues can be pretty devastating, especially if the dose is not balanced correctly, I assume that you have 6 monthly tests for that? You will come out of the depression, and although a tot or two can help relax you etc. you know as well as I, that the bottle does not contain the answers or solutions. Now, for the diabetes. Tell us about where you are with it, what are your numbers like, what sort of diet do you have, and what medications are you on. There are lots of experienced people on here that can offer good practical advice, but we need more info.

 

[Andy12345]

hi welcome

stop drinking and start caring, or dont, only you can make you better, im not a pychologist but until you decide to make the changes that you know you need to make, you are indeed going to be in trouble, but you know this already, people here can help you with dietary advice and share medication experiences etc but they cant stop you knocking back pills with alcohol, my cat knows thats a bad idea and he doesnt have a phd, you will only get help if you decide to help yourself, its from our darkest place that we can shine the brightest. take your finger off the self destruct button


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[Bebo321]

Sounds like you've been dealt a ****** hand, and you're stuck in a downward spiral.
The good news is that you are obviously bright, eloquent and have everything to offer.
What do you love in life? Do you remember what you love doing? Do something crazy and set yourself a goal; sign up for something; something that will challenge you and remind you that life is for living.
Sorry you're in such a bad place and I know we all wish we had an answer to make everything better. Trouble is, you're the only one who has it.
Wishing you a big dose of hope and courage.x

 

[donnellysdogs]

First off, forget thinking about the illnesses you have as a death sentence.

Then try to get some help with stopping the drinking, as that really is going to be the cause of an earlier death. Easier said than done, I know but seriously that is self inflicted and will be causing you the problems with your brain and organs...

Can you talk to your GP about two specific things.. Depression and drink?

It concerns me that you don't seem bothered at losing a job in comparison to giving up a causation of your problems. It concerns me as I have seen another person prefer drink and lost his job and that was then only the start of the problems.

Diabetes, thyroid etc they are all manageable illnesses and tablet taking is only a small part of a day compared to the rest of the day that you could be enjoying.

Please talk to gp ref depression and drink.

 

[Daibell]

Hi. You say you have more tablets for your diabetes, but your profile says 'diet only'? The thyroid problem is something a lot on this forum suffer from and I can't offer any guidance. For the diabetes, the right diet is always the first line of attack and hopefully you are having a sensibly low-carb diet; not always easy if you are depressed.

 

[phoenix]

Depression can be treated in various ways. From personal experience I know that when I had insufficient thyroxine , I also had a complete lack of motivation. Unfortunately high glucose levels will also sap energy
A good life is perfectly possible with both diabetes and hypothyroid but we may need a bit of medical help to achieve this .
You've taken one step by writing about it, take the next one and go and see your doctor.

 

[forge]

You know what you have to do @Paul Janowski PhD

Cut the carbs and take the prescribed meds and stop using booze as a cop out. and grab a bit of exercise with a group (you need company not pain and solitude)

The trick is a few diversions and I can recommend learning to cook locarb as a good new interest.

Exercise is best if it is interesting not just gym.

But I should talk I had the ability for a phd but unlike you I did not have the dedication. You have the form on the board.

 

[Scandichic]

Hello,

I've been type 2 for about two years but in the typical man way I've just 'got on' with it while I now realise in hindsight I have just been getting progressively worse.

My problems started 6 years ago when my thyroid stopped working and it took doctors what seem like a long time to find out what was the matter with me. I was getting physically weak and going out of my mind with worry.

I finished up unconscious at a lecture in Oxford. Students attending the lecture thought I kicked the bucket others thought it was some sort of stunt. I was rushed to hospital suffering from multiple organ failure and after some flapping about a overseas doctor working at the hospital suggested having my thyriod tested.

It took months to find the right balance of drugs to treat the problem and I'll have to take the pills for life. Then two years ago I became type 2, even more pills for the rest of my life.

I take so many pills, I feel like an old woman. Even my mother, who was a hypochondriac before really becoming ill, didn't take as many as I do.

I left my work early yesterday citing tiredness and phoned in for work sick again this morning. Some days I just can't conjure myself out of bed in the mornings. I procrastinate and dilly-daddling awful lot. I don't know if this due to the pills my illnesses or depression. I do feel that the diabetes along with my thyriod problems has cemented my feet permanently in the grave.

I taken to drink which is not helping. I wash all my medication down with a stiff drink. I could also be finding myself out of employment with the amount of time I'm taking off, so at the time of writing this I'm currently in a bad place.

Hopefully I can find advice from this forum to help me, sorry for the down beat introduction I can't sleep and feeling *****.


Paul Janowski PhD

There are a couple of things you might want to do. I think it would be a good idea to change your name - work places can be unscrupulous so it's best not to give out your real name. If you pass comment on a bad day then you are leaving yourself wide open.
Secondly a lot can be done through diet. Have a read of diet doctor. This is not some quack but a doc who writes the biggest health blog in Sweden. His name is doctor Andreas Eenfeldt and he specialises in diabetes and obesity. I don't know if you need to lose weight or not but my non diabetic thin hubbie follows this and it works just as well for him. I even found it in Polish, although there's nothing wrong with your English. Just nice to read something in your own language for a change!
http://www.dietdoctor.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/LCHF-dla-poczatkujacych_PL.doc
Thirdly, go and see your doc about your depression!
Hope you feel better soon!

 

[JTL]

Hello mate I hope you find what you need here ... I have.
Word of warning.
To much information has nothing to do with what people around you might think about you.
Identity theft is extremely easy with people like you online.
You have already put out enough information here for me to find what else I would need to go out and run up some bad credit ratings for you obtain loans visit your mail box etc.
Plus you have no idea who any of the people are on a site like this ... millions reading this stuff all over the planet.
Many of them will likely have some problems in life ... take me no more than fifteen minutes to have your home address your DOB etc etc if I was that way inclined.
A little tip for others on here .... if you know someones email address type it into facebook and there you are ... found them.
Having numerous email addys is important to avoid this.
You might think theres nothing of use on your facebook page ... you're probably wrong.
Enjoy the internet but stay safe ... I keep telling my kids.
There are websites dedicated to tracking people down to harrass people embaress them etc.
Seriosly.

 

[forge]

err, the man has a phd and works in a uni he knows all about IDs and secrecy etc etc, we should just stick with what we know.and let him do it how he chooses.

 

[JTL]

err, the man has a phd and works in a uni he knows all about IDs and secrecy etc etc, we should just stick with what we know.and let him do it how he chooses.

Having a Phd means nothing when it comes to online security I'm afraid.

 

[douglas99]

Probably wouldn't want to be a house or antiques shop in Amersham-on-the-hill I'd want to visit though, going by the avatar.

 

[phoenix]

err, the man has a phd and works in a uni he knows all about IDs and secrecy etc etc, we should just stick with what we know.and let him do it how he chooses.

Perhaps though we are worried about nothing and the original poster does actually know about secrecy . I could find my the details of my son, who also lectures at Oxford I found his phone numbers and college Email addresses in one quick look at the Campus search directory . From there I could go on to find more. I admit to trying the OPs name and it isn't there.
(goes to show though just how easy it is to find more details if people do reveal real identities and why it isn't a good idea to link your professional identity to this sort of forum)

 

[Loobles]

Paul,

You're an intelligent man and I think you really know what to do...nobody can do this for you. I come from a family of alcoholics and whilst part of me thinks it's a hopeless task to convince you to get help, a bigger part of me hopes you'll put on your "big boy pants" and get some help. There is no shame in admitting you need help to deal with the impact of your long term diagnoses and I dare say your doctors will be familar with patients struggling with such diagnoses.

First, I think you need to admit to yourself that it isn't normal to just not care about losing your livelihood. That alone should ring some alarm bells that your head isn't in a good place right now. As somebody else said, i believe losing your job will only be the tip of the iceberg, so I hope you get help now before that happens.

Second, your diagnoses are not a death sentence...burying your head in the sand can be a death sentence though, so you might want to think about that. Lots of people have died through inaction. Don't let yourself be one of them, because it doesn't need to be that way.

i think you're depressed an need help and I believe that, until you get help for that, you're going to find it difficult to address the other issues that you mentioned. I wonder if you could think about making an appointment with your doctor for ASAP?

 

[Paul Janowski PhD]

Hello everyone,

Today started out good. I was a little tired but I managed to get out of bed around midday and drive myself to work. Had a bowl of cornflakes when I got up then had another and some toast smeared with margarine. There’s something about cornflakes and toast when you wake that just seems right. I also knocked back a mug a black coffee, I miss having a capachino but I've got to cut back on sugar.

When I got to my shop the Saturday staff informed me that a Georgian alarm clock I have had in the window for what have seemed aeons got flogged. So I'm in a slightly better mood at the time of writing this reply. Going to have a a Pot Noodle for dinner and probably a curry later on this evening

Just thought I'd let everyone know that I have been to my doctor complaining of feeling depressed, but he said it more a bit of Brown Study leading to a melancholy mood. But he nevertheless gave me MORE bloody pills to take.

Thanks everyone for the comments, I know I should have not given out to much information about my problems in my first post, but its been a big emotional catharsis doing so.

Paul Janowski PhD

 

[douglas99]

Don't worry, you'll get good advice from the members on here. They put a lot of time and effort into providing good advice for everyone.
Good news with the clock.
I'm looking for a decent mirror myself.