Im just so done with everything

[Maiii1247]

Blood sugars have been above 300 for a month now. I have exams in 2 days and only could study 10% of the syllabus cause i kept falling asleep or couldnt focus due to high blood sugars and the stress from it. It just seems like a blind end. I dont know where to go from here. Disappearing right now would be easier.

 

[Antje77]

Can you contact your doctor or diabetes nurse for help with adjusting your doses?

 

[Maiii1247]

Can you contact your doctor or diabetes nurse for help with adjusting your doses?

They put me on a new insulin that doesnt work well for me but they arent ready to accept that and want me to keep being on it

 

[Lulu9101112]

Blood sugars have been above 300 for a month now. I have exams in 2 days and only could study 10% of the syllabus cause i kept falling asleep or couldnt focus due to high blood sugars and the stress from it. It just seems like a blind end. I dont know where to go from here. Disappearing right now would be easier.

I’m was like how can blood sugar level be above 300? Then I realise Americans use the weird system. Here our average range is technically 4.9-7.9 to be in range. (I have no idea what that is in your weird way sorry)


Are your levels always high during day and night or just day or just night or both?

 

[Zhnyaka]

first, calm down, because your stress increases your bg. Secondly, exams can always be retaken, but even if you can't get an education, life won't end there, and you can live happily ever after without a university. What kind of insulin do you use? Perhaps it is necessary to adjust the dose or change the time interval between eating and injecting insulin, and not change the drug. If you still need another insulin, and your doctor ignores it, write a complaint

Disappearing right now would be easier.

I hope you're joking. You have only one life, and difficulties come and go. There's nothing more important than your life, just remember that.

 

[Awiiiiin]

I have the same issue as you I'm on my second trial which is also the last trial but when I'm at my worst I always tell myself one thing so what always think of the worst that could happen let's say you fail your exam so sit again the next year and try harder that's the worst that could happen see all you have to do to relieve the stress is to do that

 

[Maiii1247]

first, calm down, because your stress increases your bg. Secondly, exams can always be retaken, but even if you can't get an education, life won't end there, and you can live happily ever after without a university. What kind of insulin do you use? Perhaps it is necessary to adjust the dose or change the time interval between eating and injecting insulin, and not change the drug. If you still need another insulin, and your doctor ignores it, write a complaint

I hope you're joking. You have only one life, and difficulties come and go. There's nothing more important than your life, just remember that.

Im sorry for the emotional dump. Im just on a rollercoaster of emotions right now. Unfortunately im in medical school and these exams are a huge deal and they cant be retaken. The college administration also wouldnt agree on it. I havent talked to them about it but they have never made an exception for anyone.
I was put on a basal and bolus regime but sadly the basal didnt work out for me and so i switched back to my premixed insulin (till i can be done with my exams) that i've been comfortable with my whole life. But in the past month my insulin needs have doubled and ive been upping the dose slightly but each time it looks like i need more. Im already injecting a huge dose and i honestly dont feel comfortable adding more units because my response to insulin do be unpredictable. Sometimes the same dose drops me and sometimes it doesnt touch my blood glucose at all. (My meals and carbs all stay the same)
Its just weird because everything was going fine but one day i woke up and all my ratios were suddenly so different.

Sorry for the rant.

P.S i should probably mention im 22 years old and ive been diabetic since i was 11

 

[Maiii1247]

I have the same issue as you I'm on my second trial which is also the last trial but when I'm at my worst I always tell myself one thing so what always think of the worst that could happen let's say you fail your exam so sit again the next year and try harder that's the worst that could happen see all you have to do to relieve the stress is to do that

I appreciate your reply. But i study in asia and the medical schools here take a huge amount of fee from you plus my mother is a single parent which adds to my stress cause i cant have her spending all that money on me over and over if i keep failing

 

[Maiii1247]

I hope you're joking. You have only one life, and difficulties come and go. There's nothing more important than your life, just remember that.

Also i would be lying if i said i havent been depressed and had self harming thoughts. Its weird cause i never thought id end up being a victim to stuff i preach against. Ive honestly lost so much weight in the past few months from my blood sugars acting up. I have to wear a mask to hide how skinny my face is. And im the only person in my class who wears a mask which is pretty embarrassing in itself

 

[Marie 2]

Over 300 blood sugars can cause even more moodiness and depression. And it's not good for your body. Switch doctors or insist on a different insulin. If you are in Asia I believe they won't be very familiar with type 1's and that might be a big part of the problem. They are more used to type 2's and there just might not be the understanding of type 1's. Asia has a very low rate of type 1's.

 

[Lulu9101112]

Blood sugars have been above 300 for a month now. I have exams in 2 days and only could study 10% of the syllabus cause i kept falling asleep or couldnt focus due to high blood sugars and the stress from it. It just seems like a blind end. I dont know where to go from here. Disappearing right now would be easier.

just wondering which country are you in? Also if it’s mostly highs during the night have you thought of increasing basal insulin. (Here in U.K. it’s called Lantus glargine). If you ratios are the same as what they used to be with bolus. I would think you may not have the right basal amount. How much basal do you give yourself?

 

[Zhnyaka]

Im sorry for the emotional dump.

everything is ok, it happens to everyone. Not for the first and not for the last (unfortunately) time

But in the past month my insulin needs have doubled and ive been upping the dose slightly but each time it looks like i need more. Im already injecting a huge dose and i honestly dont feel comfortable adding more units because my response to insulin do be unpredictable. Sometimes the same dose drops me and sometimes it doesnt touch my blood glucose at all. (My meals and carbs all stay the same)

your doctor doesn't want to prescribe you a pump with such terrible bg jumps? Sometimes it seemed to me that my insulin wasn't working either, but not enough to double the dose right away...

Unfortunately im in medical school and these exams are a huge deal and they cant be retaken. The college administration also wouldnt agree on it. I havent talked to them about it but they have never made an exception for anyone.

what does the administration of your college do if someone gets sick during exams? Maybe you should ask the doctor for a sick leave? Or insist on hospitalization? if you get expelled, can you recover for the same course next year?

but even if you fail the exams, to hell with this college, your life is more important

P.S i should probably mention im 22 years old and ive been diabetic since i was 11

you've been coping with this **** for 11 years, you can handle it now

hugging you. I hope one day you will become a good doctor and save many lives like yours.

 

[Ryhia]

Have you made it known to your tutor or lecturer that you are having these issues? If not, speak to someone asap, if possible before your exams, so that they are aware of what is going on. Unless you have been messing about all year or are struggling with the course, they will usually take a sympathetic view and can even uplift your marks if there are mitigating circumstances. If they do not know about your issues then they cannot help you. I think @Zhnyaka is giving some good advice. See if you can get a sicknote or a letter from your GP.

 

[EllieM]

Just a reminder to everyone that forum rules prohibit specific dosing advice (eg increase your insulin dose to xyz) . (Rules are in my signature and that of every other moderator).

@Maiii1247 does your university have any counselling/ student welfare services that you could talk to?

The high levels and weight loss sounds really concerning to me .Are you able to check for ketones?
And are you able to see a medical professional urgently?

I'm not surprised that you are struggling to study with those levels.

Its just weird because everything was going fine but one day i woke up and all my ratios were suddenly so different.

Sorry for the rant.

One of the purposes of this forum is to provide emotional support. Rants are allowed.

Please don't give up.

Virtual hugs.

 

[Yaya10_10]

When my bg is acting weried

I stright go to fix my meal type.

For example i eat the same breakfast everyday for a period of time. Especially when my bg is going all over the place.

Try eating similar breakfast,lunch and dinner

Boring but that is the way it is

 

[david4503]

The wide swings in blood sugars and sudden changes in insulin requirements can happen to any Type 1 under the right circumstances. But I’ve usually heard this scenario associated with “brittle” diabetes which is more difficult to control than the ordinary Type 1. I don’t know what category you’re in but doctors treating Type 1s are supposed to have a handle on these things.

 

[HSSS]

I can’t add anything regarding the management of type 1 but please contact your tutor or university urgently and tell them of your health issues. There is always a policy for ill health and exams that they should be able to inform you of and help with. It’s likely to involve evidence from your doctor of,your difficulties too. It might be considering your performance more leniently it might be the ability to retake exams (maybe without extra costs) later or a suspension and ability to restart the course once well enough. Who knows and you won’t either til you ask and push for support on medical grounds. Please don’t just assume there is no help because you haven’t heard of it yet.

 

[Smiler99]

Also i would be lying if i said i havent been depressed and had self harming thoughts. Its weird cause i never thought id end up being a victim to stuff i preach against. Ive honestly lost so much weight in the past few months from my blood sugars acting up. I have to wear a mask to hide how skinny my face is. And im the only person in my class who wears a mask which is pretty embarrassing in itself

You shouldn't be embarrassed about a mask, you wear it to protect your self I haven't been without one since covid I do hope you get some help from your diabetes team x

 

[Silkroad77]

Blood sugars have been above 300 for a month now. I have exams in 2 days and only could study 10% of the syllabus cause i kept falling asleep or couldnt focus due to high blood sugars and the stress from it. It just seems like a blind end. I dont know where to go from here. Disappearing right now would be easier.

I know the feeling.
Sometimes the Diabetics team are so stuck in their ways they want to (I'd say force) you to stay on a regime that doesn't work for you.
I've told my team that I'd like to change my insulin, but apparently, the specialists know far more about me and everything I do, what I eat, when I eat, the carbs, the fats, the proteins, the fibres etc.

I mean my HbA1c has been more or less the same, both on twice a day insulin and basal & bolus (except on the basal & bolus, I've never gotten so many hypos before in my life-more than several times a month is a complete norm for me) so that is telling you something.

I definitely think the medical community takes Diabetes as a 'one size fits all',

I wonder if you'd consider taking supplements that help reducing blood sugars?
Chromium, cinnamon, gymnema, magnesium have helped people.
Also consider black seed oil and pumpkin seed oil-if you like.

It might be worth looking getting supplements if your diabetic 'expert team' know more about your body than you do.

 

[Juicyj]

Best place to rant is here..

Please remember that running high will make you feel pants, the body can't process glucose efficiently so you're being worn down with the high numbers and the stress of this contributes to your mental state too, so quite normal to feel low. Just keep drinking lots of water, take care.