Hello. I am a type one diabetic, and have been for almost five years at this point, diagnosed when I was 16. I have struggled with depression and anxiety for most of my teenage and adult years so far, and only recently had it begun to improve. However, last year, after a particularly bad end to a relationship, I fell into a deep depression and began to completely neglect my condition, no longer caring or putting value on my life at all. During this time, though I mostly continued taking my Lantus, I pretty much I completely neglected to take any fast acting insulin for a period of 9 months to a year. I know this was a terrible desicion in retrospect, but as people with depression can atttest, hindsight is 20/20. My condition has improved greatly in the recent weeks, and with the help of medication, I am almost back to my old happy and life-loving self, however, there's is an aching fear that gnaws at me every second of the day. Will I die young? Because of this terrible desicion, have I essentially committed suicide? Even though my numbers have been under control lately, when I first started testing again a couple weeks ago, it was not uncommon to see readings in the high 20s to low 30s. Is it too late now, or can I still live a healthy life after this major blunder. I've cried myself to sleep for the last few nights because I'm so terrified that It might not matter what I do now. Because of the rural nature of where I live, it will be a while before I can get into a doctor, but I just need someone to tell me that I'll be okay, that this one year of terrible desicions can be outweighed by turning over a new leaf and properly managing my condition. Thank you. Also, I should mention I haven't had any Symptoms of complications yet, like neuropathy or blurred vision.