I really admire the way you are coping with a nightmare situation and how you honestly and openly describe your feelings.
We bought Mr K 's dad to live with us when he was diagnosed with dementia. Looking after him completely overwhelmed us. Looking after a parent with dementia is completely different from looking after a much loved wife with dementia.
We were not on our own, we had each other but it still bought us close to breaking point. You are on your own. Which is why I really admire the way you are coping.
It is my description, that it feels as if, I'm coping all alone.
It isn't!
I have family who do things, it's just that I do the majority of care and chores daily. Hence the daily grind!
Thanks again for the thought, and empathy.
It is me, that Mrs L depends and relies on.
It is me, that has to explain things, that Mrs L doesn't understand or remember.
It is me that has the frustration of the situation.
Misrememberitis, is effecting her, but it is hurting me as well.
I had anxiety and depression before this, and through help and self motivated reasons, I was on the mend (ish).
But, knowing what I know now, has knocked the stuffing out of my confidence.
I had already lost everything but my family.
Now I am going to lose someone, in a relationship sense, that I hoped would be there for me during and through my later years.
I know I have my big family and my love for all of them is unlimited. And they do and will support both of us.
It was unexpected and I'm trying to do my best. I was unprepared for this, I'm not domesticated at all.
The anxiety is always there and I hate it. And I can't help it!
The thread and forum helps so much, as does keeping busy, doing things I can do, while Mrs L has a rest or knows I'm busy.
I'm agnostic but I pray for her in my way every day.
I hope I can do this!