Thank you! And, yes the complications too should be my motivator, I watched my grandmother ( she bought me up ) die from those complications, and to say it was unpleasant is an understatement. I think I because de-motivated when I had a little slip one day, out for a meal and 'just a sweet this time' turned into oh well its ok I will just have a few chips, or a little rice, which consequently turned into just going back to eating more or less the way I used to but without the giant share sized bags of maltasers or popcorn in the evening when watching the TV, somehow in my head i figured because i wasn't consuming masses of sweet things I was still doing ok ( in the back of my mind though I knew I wasn't ). I saw the DN today and had my bloods taken, I have a follow up appointment in two weeks time to find out the results, at which point I suspect they will say I need to start on the Metformin they allowed me to go without in place of three months diet/exercise.
I am back on track as of today. I have also been running again since my diagnosis roughly 15 miles a week, not huge amounts but that is compared to doing zilch before. This forum is such a fantastic place to be for me to get back into the correct mind set. I think I have always been a n all or nothing kind of person, so those little slips have to be non-existent in order to make this work. I was on under 40 carbs a day last time, I don't even really know what is sustainable and what isn't but i did feel like I was eating the same meals, the same things day in day out, so restrictive. I'm going to need to look outside of the box I think x