Took the better half shopping to Lidl this am.
We have a decent day for a change with the sun shining.
D.
Raining first thing then brightened up a little bit, Sun trying, but will fail. Wind is picking up again.
so no garden work yesterday or today! Drat, double drat!
6.3 this morning.
Woke up, needed to get up but it was still dark, got back in bed, then more darkness descended. It wasn't anything to do with the dawn or night. It was brain telling me that it wouldn't be impressed with my willingness to arise as I needed to be today!
Today's word is........melancholic!
That is my morning. I just couldn't face it till I got on with my chores!
Headache, eyes, stressful, down, lethargic and my brain hurts, not much but it is heavy!
Mrs L was sympathetic of my feelings and is now having a nap to be out of the way. Everything is annoying and I can't be ***** being angry about it all.
Chores had to be done because of another visit from council, housing services which is later.
I just feel down and yuk!
It is a feeling I have not had since after my breakdown, it is ugly and horrible. I have learned the tools to counter something like this, and I'm working through them.
Been the shop for necessities but was walking through heavy sand, in a drudge, no smiles today for those who served me or neighbours. I just want to be by myself!
It's been a long morning, hopefully I can get the other side of this day.
I know what it is. It is the realisation of my life and how it's changed so much, coming home to roost. And I'm not sure I'm prepared or ready to have the tools to do it! Confident of being able to cope.
I have had a few tears this morning. I think a good cry will help as will getting this off my chest.
I'm grateful for being able to do this, my next counselling is ten days away, at this moment, I have no sounding board, nor will I bother one of my family, they have no need for me to burden them with my feelings!
A cuppa needed and a Kleenex I think!
Have a better day than I am having!
I will bounce back!
My best wishes as always.
Sorry, I did another long post!
And the artwork and the friendliness on here is brilliant!
Thanks.