donellysdogs your post made me cry in a good way,to have someone who eats in a similar way to me has really made me feel better,thank you for that.i will keep an eye out to see what you eat. I find it hard to see the food in the 'lumpy stage' I couldn't purée it as I know it was previously in lumps.i know this is strange but it's my way of coping.ive not committed for over 36hours,that's the longest I've ever gone and I'm so proud of myself.the thing is I've got very snappy and emotional and my boyfriend can't understand what's happening to me,is this normal or have my emotions come to the fore because I've not vomitted?
x x
It is good to feel pride for a change!!! Well done.
My two nice ambulancemen explained to hubby (and me) that 1) narkiness occured at levels higher than 8.0 up to about 25 ish and before a come from DKA. Hypo's are also narky but different to them as they can be more physically involved with violence... hyper narkiness us more associated with tiredness.
In strange ways we are similar!! I have permanently lost my ability to eat full
Size meals due to my paralysed colon... but it makes me more aware of actually hanging in there to do my best to stay alive!!
And healthy!!
I have a friends daughter that was in a eating disorder unit for a year!! I have seen her struggles and its given me a different vision of struggles. She now toyrs the country to schools and places giving talks. She doesn't have to contend with diabetes too....
To be honest, I see the whole world as having some sort of eating probs... its not just me with paralysed colon and a stupud stomach, its not just you with bulimia... if you can ever get to watch people in a supermarket and what goes in trollies... boy, theres a lot of people with a lot of problems besides us.
The difference, we are actually recognising our problems and trying to deal with them... we can't afford to look back, nobody can.
You sound as if you have a lovely boyfriend, my hubby is my life... we do have to learn when we are displaying narkiness and take steps even if we are hugh and can blame it on this... or at least to say thankyou and niceness to them later!!
My lust of foods to eat is very, very small but like you I am on a journey to try and increase the things I can eat.
Some things I have grown to love!!
Rachels ginger yogurt with blueberries (but they come out of me whole and painful!)... so for 9g of carb I have 100g of melon and the yogurt!! Good vitamins.. full fat.
I also make sure I do have a lively big coffee bean (1/3 waitose decaff with waitrose peru/another type too) with single cream each day.
I love butternut squash now but have to limit it to 4 x100g a week. There is a lovely higgidly piggidly pue that I can eat.. despite technically I shouldn't as its pastry and spinach, cheese n pine nuts.. the spinach and pine nuts come out whole but they still at least come out! I can eat 1/4 of this pie.
I also have chronic nausea... not to point of being sick but its pretty much 80% of time whilst being awake. I tablet that I have stopped increased it to 100% nausea. I literally wanted to put fingers down throat and getrid of the nausea.
We have a fight. It will probably be on a permanent basis for us both but we need to keep positive and to see any small improvement as a big one for us!!
For me, analysing my food and nutrition helped me to get positive. I do have a good (cancer) therapist though that helps me with my stomach/ diabetes too... I have tasks set me every two weeks to see positives.... to get me to see that my small steps are actually huge...
I know when I can see a changing attitude with you and I absolutely applaud you.xx