One just has to keep trying
@jjraak
Plateaus and apparent dead ends crop up quite a bit, and then I'm stuck for a bit.
A change of attitude, change of position, altering the frequencies of the devices, approach the next session with the device with a goal in mind for that moment in time, and so on. The impossible can be done, but it is tiny steps of impossible.
30 years ago I had all the health problems I have now, and I wondered how I was going to make it through to the following year. Would I still be able to drive? Would I still be able to live independently, and so on. They were very real valid fears.
Well as you can tell I am still here. And I had this conversation with my daughter when she was here. And I said that I had been badly worried 30 years ago that I wouldn't be able to carry on coping with my disabilities and restrictions. But I am. I have to adapt. I do feel very overwhelmed at times. That feeling comes most days. But I have to deal with it, and turn it around on its head.
Are you really sure you are coping asks my daughter. I am still here, I reply, and I go food shopping myself, I still drive, and so on. I have limitations but I find new ways through them. Yes I am coping, I said to daughter.
As you on here know, I do have my off days, I do rant on occasion (or oftener!) and the rest of it, but it is life.
And then I said to my daughter, I should be able to do another 30 years. Her eyes widened. Well if you are sure mum? Til a hundred she asked? Yeah, why not, I replied.
By the way mum, my daughter said she had visited an old uni friend, and her bedroom was 'cosy' like mine, and I told my friend, this is just like my mum's bedroom. 'Cosy' being an euphemism for an untidy lived in bedroom with everything in it, and the bed being a workstation of everything all around me, including my hand massagers, shoulder massager, and foot massager...
The sky is lightening here.
Another cuppa required...
My fans have all died a death - they need refilling with water and ice, and fresh battery power packs...
You have a good day, and keep on with that massager...