Fbg 6.8
A friend of mine looked over the letter I had drafted to the Practice Manager yesterday. It needs neatening up and the anger taken out she said. I thought I had taken the anger out. An hour later I received the neatened up version. That was one sword of damacles lifted off my head.
The second sword of damacles was to arrive this morning. I was talking on Skype with my daughter from Oz. We had a good chat, then she was called for dinner, and had to sign off, she suddenly gave me a health problem of hers which is being currently investigated, and they cannot find an answer, she is very scared. I said don't worry, don't worry, we'll talk next week.
And I smiled and she smiled back, but inside I was saying oh s***, because I have what I am presuming at this point, the same health problem, but it has not killed me yet, but when I was told in the late 1990's, I was scared s***less every day for a few years. J was with me when I got told.
Together, J and I drafted a letter about it and the complications, and implications for my 3 children (in their 20's by then, and that they may need to consider whether they should have children). My 3 children refused to discuss it or even talk about it. It was a taboo subject.
Now, with what my Oz daughter said fleetingly as we were signing off, it is looking like the complications of it have been passed on to her from me.
Does she remember what I told them from over 20 years ago. I think it got blocked/erased out of their minds.
I lost the email address I wrote the original letter on, but I can remember the main points. I will see how much more I can remember on it today. But I will need to 'craft' my information to her, so she is not deathly scared as I was over 20 years ago, when I was told so bluntly and in great detail. My daughter needs enough information so she can relay that to her specialist, so he has the facts. My plan is to send this wed/thurs so she can have enough time to assimilate this information before we talk on Sunday.
That day over 20 years ago, is still etched in my mind, and I can still see the specialist talking to me now...
YouTube videos from my nighttime wildlife cameras.
Here we have:
Cat, Jade is on the swing (you can just see her in the beginning), and the friendly badger I call KissyKissy appears to have seen Jade for the first time on the wildlife nighttime camera.
Cat, Midnight, comes through from the bushes seconds after the badger has left up the garden path...
Creative is a painting of an autumn tree...
Don't forget, we are living on borrowed time. I have been, for a very very long time. I was talking about it to my daughter and the events of it a couple of weeks ago, so she knows the background story to an event long ago. I just now have to explain again to her about the information my 3 kids wouldn't listen to from 20 odd years ago.
I am going to make a cuppa and something nice to eat.
Find some inner soul time today...
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