Oh Granny_grump_ I am so sorry to hear of your so sad a loss, I know how heart breaking it is I still miss Maisie pug so much and it was nearly 10 months ago that we lost her. When I am feeling really low about her I listen to a song on you tube, it is One More Light by Linkin Park and is a tribute to all the losses everyone has had, it makes me cry so much but strangely then it makes me feel so much better for a while. We found it helped Aggie pug to go to the places we used to go for our walks so that she could see Maisie wasn't there because she missed her so much. Also she wouldn't eat and so we had to hand feed her to start with. If you need to vent your feelings please message me and we can do it together.