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So... 2 years post T2 diagnosis, masses of symptoms, went low carb, dropped hba1c by 2/3 into almost normal range. Doing well.
Then... well, I could make a few excuses... lockdown, losing my mum to covid (helped by her T2)...and the carb cravings came back. Bigger and more obvious and too big to push aside.
I have no control over what I am eating - yes, I know I really have but it doesn't feel like it currently- eating masses more carbs in meal than I should in a whole day, possibly in a week. BG up, when I actually test, weight up, gained all I'd lost.
Everyday I get up with the plan that I will get back on it and by lunchtime I couldn't give two hoots. I am truly self sabotaging. I have no symptoms at the moment and therefore I'm 'fine'. Yes, I know I'm doing damage to my insides.
I have sat and scoffed a whole garlic bread, eaten chips, cakes, bars of chocolates, magnums, crisps. Possibly all in one day.
I can't get to the bottom of why I'm allowing myself to be like this. I don't want to eat like this but it's literally like I am out of control.
So, I'm back again, again, in order to try and be accountable for my actions again.
Then... well, I could make a few excuses... lockdown, losing my mum to covid (helped by her T2)...and the carb cravings came back. Bigger and more obvious and too big to push aside.
I have no control over what I am eating - yes, I know I really have but it doesn't feel like it currently- eating masses more carbs in meal than I should in a whole day, possibly in a week. BG up, when I actually test, weight up, gained all I'd lost.
Everyday I get up with the plan that I will get back on it and by lunchtime I couldn't give two hoots. I am truly self sabotaging. I have no symptoms at the moment and therefore I'm 'fine'. Yes, I know I'm doing damage to my insides.
I have sat and scoffed a whole garlic bread, eaten chips, cakes, bars of chocolates, magnums, crisps. Possibly all in one day.
I can't get to the bottom of why I'm allowing myself to be like this. I don't want to eat like this but it's literally like I am out of control.
So, I'm back again, again, in order to try and be accountable for my actions again.