jjraak
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In my experience @jjraak I would call that 'being aware' of my surroundings, the situation, or whatever. I can also call that 'shadow boxing', so I don't perceive it as a negative but see it as being mentally prepared in case of...
Very much agree, it was how I lived my life.
Never understood why any one walking alone keeps their hands in pockets, ..see the risks & be prepared.
I was almost looking into my rear view mirrors while out walking ..
But that was just Real life back then.
And it is THAT interpretation of how I see reality now, that has changed.
I think it's the being way too up close & personal to such an event .
The idea I might get hit by a van was a reason to be cautious
The fact I did get hit by a van, changes that perspective immeasurably.
I now know, the unexpected does happen, in far too graphic detail.
And it's THAT post accident viewpoint, that I think is the barrier.
Therapist sees a few precautions to take if it rains, for example.
I now see it might not rain, it might flood, ..and be devastating...without any warning
So a small umbrella isn't going to cut it.
So I'm more thoughtful.
I envisage beyond the basics
So asking me how I feel about rain.
And Anything I say, ...seemingly that isn't take an umbrella,.... is the wrong answer.
Threats
In the hope I might provide a little more clarity, i produced a spreadsheet of Risks/ threats pre crash V post crash to show my view now.
Of how the most basic things and how I assess them has changed.
Sure we all have to manage change, but here I'm just discussing how to communicate such differences with my therapist.
Q. What scares me.(make me feel threatened)
Q. how does it make me feel
One item
Showering ...low risk pre crash
Showering....high risk post crash
I can't stand, high risk of slipping, small seat in bath is best I can do and even then it's a precarious position, re bending to clean lower extremities or back, etc.
That thought I might fall..puts me back on the ground at the crash site, immobile reliant on others, no idea how long before help arrives, etc etc
My perception has changed irrevocably.
Therapist is where I was pre crash, I believe
Threats
Was a small list.
Now, it's several pages.
Our language & perception is different.
Hoping we can both explain so the other understands .
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Sorry, but with upcoming meeting, I found this quite therapeutic to lay it out so plainly.
Thank you @gennepher for the opportunity to think aloud xx