Meant to have been October but delayed as the SHO (that did ****** all) is on holiday and not back til December!!
I met with the Clinical Director and got all my answers and apologies and really now it’s a formality now. Just that it fall s on our anniversary date!!
Some inquests have taken 3 years!! Our area has amalgamated two offices and this has caused delays too, but hopefully some costs...
Took a photo on a lake walk the other day, was thinking that it was the first time I had gone round the lake since John died... took photo and this bright blue light dazzled momentarily whilst I took photo!!!
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Nothing there before and nothing the after!! Got to be a sign that he there with me....miss him so much every day.
I've experienced sunbeams which warmed my body in a very stressful time. They followed me then was gone. I do believe someone I knew very well was watching over me. Too.
I'm thinking of you. You remarkable lady.
There were some quite a few deaths in my family in the noughties, in all seven!
After all the trauma and sadness, me and the wife took ourselves away to the Lakes just to getaway from the humdrum of daily life and the pains of those still living. (Big family!)
I like to walk and was having a struggle with my weight and health at the time, I would be misdiagnosed the following year with T2! So, I decided to go on a hill walk, over one of the Lakes near Keswick, but not Derwent water, I think bassenthwaite water. However I became slightly lost, and I found this small picnic area, with a bench looking over a weird at the foot of this hill, as I said I was struggling with my health, and became tired, so I sat down on this bench and as the saying goes contemplated life and my part in it!
I fell asleep and was awoken by something, I'm not sure, but the sun was shining and I was really warm and sweating in my walking clothes.
But and this is true, my outlook on life completely changed from that moment on, it became more positive, no more negativity and I had a wife and kids and grandkids to live for, I got a kick in the pants, I got my determination back and I was empowered to do something more than live in the past, live in the real world and stop feeling sorry for myself.
It took another four years to get a definitive diagnosis, I never stopped asking questions of my doctors, I got lead down the wrong path, but got back my life, my health and I really needed what happened to me that day.
My guardian angel(?) helped me get my health, my life and the determination to go and get a good job and be proud of what I do and how I help my family.
I want to thank you both for your posts, because I have been so busy lately and have just remembered how I got here now. An inspiration! Another reminder of why my life has changed for the better. Thanks again!
Best wishes.