Hi,
I have been writing on this forum for some time, having been diagnosed almost 3 years ago, type 2, since I do not fit the 'typical' type 2 mode I was completely blown away and it has taken me ages to come to terms with it and this board has been a lifeline.
This post is not really about diabetes, but because I am diabetic, I am not sure that I cope with the lastest news in our family. I know there are people far worse off than myself, but right now I am still feeling rather down.
Now, my husband has been referred to a neurologist by our GP with suspected Parkinsons, this was first pointed out to me by members of my own family, and others who had not seen him for some time, that it could be possible. I was quite taken aback but realised that this made many bits of the 'puzzle' come together. Although, not definitely confirmed it seems pretty much likely, and GP has told him to get out and enjoy life now! I think that he knew long, or had suspicions long before anyone else. I feel immensely for him, I really do. But, heaven forgive me, I am also feeling very scared for us both. This is a second marriage, and things have not always been easy, just beginning to slowly fall into place and now it seems those long term plans may not come to fruition. I am still working, although 60 next month, as I have bills to pay off. I have an extremely demanding job, which has become much more difficult this last month and sometimes wonder how I can go on with it. I was beginning to feel trapped, I have hardly slept with stress and over stimulation as my work is so very hectic and demanding, over last week, went to bed exhausted, but hubby who seems to have to get up alot at night woke me in the early hours and could not go back to sleep, I am not working today, but do look after baby grandson two days a week to help my daughter and her husband. I am feeling so wiped, and it is work again tomorro , I feel that I cannot cope much longer. I am usually optimistic, and have down moments that do not last long then get on with things and life usually feels better. But I am feeling quite deflated with not much light at the end of tunnel.
I realise that nothing stays as dark as this all the time, and my lack of sleep is making me feel worse. But I am feeling very sorry myself at the same time as feeling guilty for doing so. Coping with diabetes, as you know is an ongoing emotional and physical thing, now I have to worry for husband as well, as I said, I am being outrageously selfish, but cannot help it right now. I spent several years helping elderly parents and being part time carer for my poor late mother, had an abusive first marriage with a very nasty ending. Really trying to see the good side, i.e. my beautiful grandson, who is a ray of sunshine.
Sorry if I am depressing others, but need the proverbial shoulder to cry on, without upsetting my family
I have been writing on this forum for some time, having been diagnosed almost 3 years ago, type 2, since I do not fit the 'typical' type 2 mode I was completely blown away and it has taken me ages to come to terms with it and this board has been a lifeline.
This post is not really about diabetes, but because I am diabetic, I am not sure that I cope with the lastest news in our family. I know there are people far worse off than myself, but right now I am still feeling rather down.
Now, my husband has been referred to a neurologist by our GP with suspected Parkinsons, this was first pointed out to me by members of my own family, and others who had not seen him for some time, that it could be possible. I was quite taken aback but realised that this made many bits of the 'puzzle' come together. Although, not definitely confirmed it seems pretty much likely, and GP has told him to get out and enjoy life now! I think that he knew long, or had suspicions long before anyone else. I feel immensely for him, I really do. But, heaven forgive me, I am also feeling very scared for us both. This is a second marriage, and things have not always been easy, just beginning to slowly fall into place and now it seems those long term plans may not come to fruition. I am still working, although 60 next month, as I have bills to pay off. I have an extremely demanding job, which has become much more difficult this last month and sometimes wonder how I can go on with it. I was beginning to feel trapped, I have hardly slept with stress and over stimulation as my work is so very hectic and demanding, over last week, went to bed exhausted, but hubby who seems to have to get up alot at night woke me in the early hours and could not go back to sleep, I am not working today, but do look after baby grandson two days a week to help my daughter and her husband. I am feeling so wiped, and it is work again tomorro , I feel that I cannot cope much longer. I am usually optimistic, and have down moments that do not last long then get on with things and life usually feels better. But I am feeling quite deflated with not much light at the end of tunnel.
I realise that nothing stays as dark as this all the time, and my lack of sleep is making me feel worse. But I am feeling very sorry myself at the same time as feeling guilty for doing so. Coping with diabetes, as you know is an ongoing emotional and physical thing, now I have to worry for husband as well, as I said, I am being outrageously selfish, but cannot help it right now. I spent several years helping elderly parents and being part time carer for my poor late mother, had an abusive first marriage with a very nasty ending. Really trying to see the good side, i.e. my beautiful grandson, who is a ray of sunshine.
Sorry if I am depressing others, but need the proverbial shoulder to cry on, without upsetting my family