Rosemary, I've been living this malarkey since 2013, and I can say with confidence there isn't one person around who has lived with this condition for a while who hasn't had a day they looked back on thinking, "what was I thinking?"
Whether the food was good, bad or indifferent,, it's one of those days we move on from. You absolutely haven't let anyone down.
Sometimes we have a lot to cope with, and I can appreciate you have a couple of biggies at the moment. Loss is so very hard. Yes, it gets easier with time, but that doesn't mean we don't miss the person a lot, and there are days when they will be forever in our thoughts. Just take those days as a sign of how much love you felt for them. That can never be a bad thing.
I hope your op goes well on Monday. Undoubtedly you'll be glad to get it over with.
You're doing extremely well. Don't let a bump in the road hinder your progress.
In the spirit of the thread, I had my usual breakfast and lunch options yesterday, with a delish tray back at dinner.
We usually have some chorizo in the tray bake. It adds flavour, and gives off a lovely oil to coat the veggies to keep them soft. We tried a Fuet yesterday in chorizo's stead. That wasn't to our taste at all. It was hard, didn't give off any flavour or oil and tasted decidedly sweet to me. The remainder is not in the fridge. It's in the bin, which for us is unusual. We're pretty decent on food waste.
It's Lidl's Spanish week this week, in this area, so we have restocked the decent chorizo extra - not the little sausage size, but the 3" diameter beasties.